Move on....

May be i started my journey too ealy. I always look back at the live i used to have at Kampar. Wondering if i'm the only one that have change. Sometime when my live here is too tiring i will think that may be i should go back to the live that go out with MDBC, bark with them, and so on. That weekend, without my gf, i had a visit to the place i used to hang out when i was at Kampar.

Surprisingly, most of the things change, it is no longer the place i knew. What was leaved - only memories, the lake i liked is now a land, the path that i walked now is a place that i'm no longer familiar with. I suddenly realised that i should move on, there is no need for me to stay with the memories that i have. New live is awaiting. I am relieved. I am on the correct path. I am ready to move on further. Then the news came, once again, a surprise- the death of my father. I was stunned. The scene that i have seen in the T.V came alive. I never imagine my father will end up in this way. He is a careful driver, a careful motorcyclist. Yet, accident still happen. I knew that i will never know how the accident happen, i can't reason his death. It made me more difficult to accept it. He died in a horrible way, i can't imagine what will happen to my mum if she saw him in this situation(She was outside when i was asked to recognise my father's body). Lucikily thanks to forensic, they actually sew back my father's head.

I cut my hair. It is very short now, he liked my hair short. Now i have to move on. Live become more difficult without his helps. One thing i know is nomatter how hard i try, one of my dream has gone forever.

Lost...

it was almost a week, every thing happens so sudden and i'm always think that i was in a dream. I try to wake up, but i can't, it was not a dream. It is real, real real real. Last Sunday was mother's day, we went to Jusco to eat Sushi, we laughed, we ate, we were happy and enjoyed. It was the first time i brought my family to have lunch at Ipoh. The next day, i lost him. It was a big lost, i still can't accept it in some ways, it takes time. Dad, why you leaved us! I can't took over your reponsiblilities, it was too heavy and i was too young. I was not ready in any way. I was not indepentant enough. You dropped the whole family on my shoulder, my shoulder was not wide enough.

They said at least you get to eat with your sons before you leaved but do you know how suffer i am now. I always think i can spend my time with you when i retire. I always think i can take you and mum to go oversea. I always want to buy a new car for you and i will drive the old Proton. Why you can wait for a year or two. I am saving money for the car now, it will take only another year. Mum was so sad, it was really hard for me, brother and sister to pretend nothing had happen in front of her. We cry whenever mother is no around.

I miss you, dad. We miss you.

Betrayal?

After waking up today, i actually tried to do my assignment. It was a two day holiday. Public holidays, so i did not need to teach tuition as well as go to college. No disturbance, best timing to complete 3 of my assignment which the due date are next week. However the line was so lag, i give up, i open the television. A program attract my attention. The program actually found 2 couples that having third party issues. The girls were actually claimming that their boy friends actually having "affair" with the so called their boyfriend's godsister.

The 1st couples i believe it was some coincident misunderstood, while the second couples i sure that the boyfriend is guity. At first he and his god sister did not admit, but this is what he say in the end of the program;' I think that she is too controlling, we are still young, i think we should let each other try more!'
His girl friend shouted,' OH GOD! Do u know what were you saying!'

The boy friend is 26. What do u mean still young? I thought 26 years is the age when everyone already settle down and found their directions. Man, find a better excuse! Affair is affair, no matter what u say, betrayal is betrayal! Excuses such as "i make the mistake that every man make" or "Every man is like that" are unacceptable. What do u do if your girl friend is having affair with other man and then tell you" I make the mistake that every man make!"

I always believe that 21 years old is the age when everyone has to reponsible for what they have done, what they dicide. Come on, once you 21, you are a man/woman, no longer a teenager, a boy, or a girl, be like a man/woman! Take your responsiblities!

One of my assignment(brochure)

One of my assignments is to create a brochure for the topic that i need to present on. This brochure contribute 10% of my final while the presentation contribute another 5 %. Look like quite pro, right? HAhaha......Anyway, in total i still have 8 assignment along the way. Wish me luck for it.