What man u wan to b?

What type of man i want to be? It is a question that i have been asking myself since i was a child. There are a lot of answers that appear in my mind thoughout my growing up. I want to be like Wesley in the scientific fictions - brave and dare to do anything as long as it is right. I want to be like Zhao Yu in the story of Romance of Three kingtom -brave heart and invulnerable. I want to be like Yang Gua - dare to do anything for love. Besides all of these, i want to be a rich man - well, not too rich, i just want to have early retirement.

Still until now, i think i change into someone that i hardly know. I am now poor, too careful in my choice, and lastly, i lost contact with most of my friends. I feel like i am now too busy chasing money, I lost my direction. Last night, i chat with a friend of mine. I told him my plan. I told him that my plan will work. However in my heart, i am scare like hell. How can i be so sure that the plan work? What if the plan do not work out like what i expected and the relationship with my friend then break? What if i am no longer the wei kheong that i know? I lost confident in myself.

I know that i should be trying some job before i open my own business, furthermore i have no modal now. I will be working on it. I know it is no easy way to become a rich man, but i hope i will not become the man that i hate.