Vigilance!

After reading monkey's post, i suddenly recalled the test that i had done. It is a personality test call as the 16 PF. It was a paper pencil test where u have to answer 200++ questions. After that, u will know the 16 common characteristics of yours. Welli score averagely in most of the characteristics except for the vigilance and perfectionism. I scored a very high score in the vigilance factor and very low score in the perfectionism. Scoring high in the vigilance factor inticate that i am very suspicious toward other people that approaching me. I am always thinking that someone approaching me because they have some purposes. While scoring low in the perfectionism inticates that i am not very organize. I will easily get comfortable in any situation.

The test is quite accurate. I am very caution about others. I'm alway have the thinking that someone doing something because they have something they need in their mind. I'm also alway keeping things in my mind, not believing in anyone. I alway think that letting others know who i am will make myself become weak and then being taken advantages by the others. Don't ask me why but i just don't know what happen in my growing process that develop such characteristic in myself. I was so suspicious that i keep this characteristic as a secret. Until now, i believe that no one else know about me, about the thinking that i was having.

Just like monkey, i hate people backstabbing each others. I saw many cases that happen around me, i just kept quiet and keeping things in myself. I keep their names in my mind and i always caution when i was around them, try to avoid any unpleasant thing that may happen. I become more and more quiet as i do not want to have any attention or become the attention spot of the spot lights.I do not want to become one of their victims. However accidents did happen. Not matter how hard u tried to avoid, backstabbing is unavoidable. I was badly hurt.

Friends, simple step to avoid backstabbing, do not let others know about you weaknesses. They never dare to do anything if they know nothing about you.