无趣的生活。。。失色的光芒由谁来上色？

沉淀生命;沉淀自己

2010-02-24T09:10:00.001-08:00

麦克失业后，心情糟透了，他找到了镇上的牧师。牧师听完了麦克的诉说，把他带进一个古旧的小屋，屋子里一张桌上放着一杯水。牧师微笑着说：“你看这只杯子，它已经放在这儿很久了，几乎每天都有灰尘落在里面，但它依然澄清透明。你知道是为什么吗？”

　　麦克认真思索后，说：“灰尘都沉淀到杯子底下了。”牧师赞同地点点头：“年轻人，生活中烦心的事很多，就如掉在水中的灰尘，但是我们可以让他沉淀到水底，让水保持清澈透明，使自己心情好受些。如果你不断的振荡，不多的灰尘就会使整杯水都浑浊一片，更令人烦心，影响人们的判断和情绪。”

　　有一年夏天，俞洪敏老师沿着黄河旅行，他用瓶子灌了一瓶黄河水。泥浆翻滚的水，被灌到水瓶里十分浑浊。可是一段时间后，他猛然发现瓶子里的水开始变清，浑浊的泥沙沉淀下来，上面的水变得越来越清澈，泥沙全部沉淀只占整个瓶子的五分之一，而其余的五分之四都变成了清清的河水。他透过瓶子，想到了很多，也悟到了很多：生命中幸福与痛苦也是如此，要学会沉淀生命。

　　之所以有的人感觉生活是痛苦的，而有的人更幸福，主要是人们对待痛苦的态度不同。其实，等到瓶子里的水平静下来，一切又恢复清澈与透亮。如果我们能够静下心来，让痛苦沉淀在我们的心底，不管痛苦能不能消失，都只让它占有我们心里的一小片空间，那大部分的空间就会被幸福充实。过去，我们在匆忙和浮躁中，拼命地摇晃我们的生活，没有片刻的沉静，使我们的生活变得一片浑浊，使所有的幸福都掺杂了痛苦的成分。尤其是人在烦躁的时候，更容易疯狂地震荡自己，摇起满瓶的浑浊，于是我们时时感到痛苦、烦恼、焦虑，这不是因为痛苦多于幸福，而是我们用不恰当的方式，让痛苦像脱缰的野马，随意奔跑在我们生活的每一个角落。

　　为此，我们不妨学会———沉淀生命，沉淀经验，沉淀心情，沉淀自己！让生命在运动中得以沉静，让心灵在浮躁中得以片刻宁静。把那些烦心的事当作每天必落的灰尘，慢慢地、静静地让它们沉淀下来，用宽广的胸怀容纳它们，我们的灵魂兴许会变得更加纯净，我们的心胸会变得更加豁达，我们的人生会更加快乐。

最爱的

2010-02-17T05:54:00.000-08:00

好久没见到你，没想到我依然还有心跳的的感觉。我还以为这种久违的感觉不会再出现，可是这类似初恋的感觉又该死的出现了。我后悔了，为什么会这样？为什么我们不能天天都在一起？虽然你看起来有点肥，但你在我眼中是多么的有吸引力，难道不能长久拥有的才是最好的？妈的，我好爱你。。。。。肉干

19個令人誤會的句子

2010-02-03T08:36:00.000-08:00

19個令人誤會的句子
1、那天我痴痴地望著你性感的身軀，一絲不掛地在我面前扭動，輕輕撫摸你的肌膚，我無法抵擋你的誘惑
老板，我就要這條魚！

2、你快樂因為我快樂，我開心因為你開心，我愁了因為你瘦了，我瘦了因為你病了，我笑了因為你壯了，我有錢了因為把你賣了
…………豬啊！

3、我第一次時很緊張，他一直要我溫柔地放松，接著插入我身體，那里在流血，我痛得喊不出話來，這才明白
……捐血是這樣的！

4、那一夜我抱著你，在你耳邊叫你戴上那玩意，你說不戴的感覺才夠爽，現在是安全期，沒事
……可不戴頭盔交警抓著咋辦

5、我是一個暗戀你的人，見到你的第一眼我就認定你是我今生該等的人，但我唯一的遺憾是
…………抱歉，我發錯人了

6、當你默默離開我時，我痛苦萬分，不知如何是好，看著你的背影遠去，我恨自己，都是我的錯
……早起一點就趕上車了

7、你知道嗎？我天天都在想你，夜夜都在念你。吃飯時想、睡覺時想、工作時想，很想對你說
…………快點還錢！！

8、我真地愛你，不想離開你，心痛你讓我套的那麼深。如果你真地不想讓我難過，請快一點漲起來
……股市

9、你善良像貓兒,你忠實像狗兒,你可愛像鳥兒,你識途像馬兒,你出色像蝶兒,你勤勞像蜂兒,你什麼都相像,也難怪大家都叫你
…………禽獸

10、第一眼見到你，我就對自已說︰你就是我今生的奮斗目標，我要追求你，擁抱你。我要宣布︰我愛你
……人民幣

11、沒有你的日子，生活變得難受，我恨那個可惡的第三者將你搶走，你和他是否有了新感情？好想你回到我身邊
--錢包

12、不要問我為什麼哭泣，我的淚水為你而流，我的心為你而碎。我恨那個男人，他為什麼要將你從我身邊奪去
……死小偷

13、害羞的我有一句話一直都不敢向你表白，但是今天我終于鼓起勇氣
你什麼時候請我吃飯？

14、如果沒有風，雲不會動；如果沒有水，魚不能游；如果沒有太陽，月亮就不會有光；如果沒有你
……笨人也就不存在了

15、食客︰睡覺多少錢一晚？（水餃多少錢一碗）服務員︰流氓！（六毛）商人
六毛？這麼平宜。我來三晚

16、由于次數太多（有時還一天兩次），你那里的毛都被搞得亂七八糟的，抽插時也沒了快感，我們還是分手吧
……牙刷

17、當我窮困潦倒時，在我身旁的是你；當我生病受傷時，在我身邊的是你；當我情場失意時，在我身旁的還是你
……跟你在一起真倒霉

18、“緊嗎？”“不緊！”“可以再進去一點嗎？”“小心一點，應該可以！”“痛嗎？”
不痛！感覺真爽！就買這雙吧。

19、看著你那流線的軀體，我欲火焚身，撥開你那尚未開啟的封蓋，插入我自備的小棍，吸取你晶瑩的液體
爽！雪碧

潜意识的测验

2009-08-13T08:05:00.000-07:00

主　旨：不可思議的潛意識

別將畫面捲動的太快哦！
慢慢的將畫面下移，
但要以最快速的時間心算，
所看到的數學程式，
然後回答問題！

開始囉！
往下走，
並答題吧！

2+2 ＝?

4+4 ＝ ?

8+8＝ ?

16+16 ＝ ?

快！隨便在 12 跟 5 的中間挑一個數字！

挑了嗎？
現在繼續往下 ....

你挑的數字是 "7" ，對吧！
奇怪吧！繼續作下一個實驗！
跟著下列敘述並且快速回答問題！
算算看囉！

1+5

2+4

3+3

4+2

5+1

現在持續默念 "6"這個數字 15 秒，
然後往下捲動畫面！

快！想一個蔬菜的名字！
然後繼續往下捲動作！

繼續捲動…… .

你想的是紅蘿蔔，對吧！
如果不是，你是佔2% 可以在正常情形下還可以有餘力思考別的事的少數人口，
98% 的人會回答紅蘿蔔。
詭異哦！聽說這個測驗是從愛麗絲夢遊仙境中兔子國翻譯的……

嘿嘿，又來一個了，趕快試試看吧！你是否與眾不同﹖
請跟著以下的指示，盡快地回答以下的問題，
但要先完成一個問題才回答下一個。你不需要寫下答案，
只要心算便可。

15+6 是多少

3+56

89+2

12+53

75+26

25+52

63+32

123+5

快！！！心想一種工具和一種顏色！

你剛剛想的是否是紅色的鎚子﹖

如果答案不是的話，你就是 2% 的與別不同的人／不正常人，
通常 98% 的人做這個測驗會回答紅色的鎚子，
如果你不信的話，不妨給你的朋友試試。

你答对几题？

2009-08-13T07:55:00.000-07:00

你答对几题？
女老师问其中男同学的问题
老師：『什麼東西牛有4個而我只有2個？』

老師：『什麼東西你褲子裡有而我的褲子裡沒有？』

老師：『什麼東西以C開頭，T結尾，上面有很多毛，橢圓型，含有令人陶醉的，乳白色的液體？』

老師：『什麼東西進去的時候是即紅又硬，而出來的時候是軟的、有黏液的？』

老師：『什麼事情男人要站著做，女人坐著做，狗用三條腿做？』>

老師：『現在我將問你幾個"你猜我是什麼"的問題，可以嗎？』

老師：『你用棍橕在我的裡面，把我頂上，再把我支起來。而我在這之前就變濕了。』

老師：『手指會進入我。當你煩躁的時候你會玩弄我。最好的男人一直會有我。』

老師：『進入過我的東東有大有小。當我不舒服的時候，我就會滴下水滴。當你吹我的時候，你會感到很舒服。』

老師：『我有一個堅硬的杆。我的頭可以插入到別的東東。隨後，那東西就會全身顫抖。』

老師：『什麼單詞以F開頭，K結尾，並且有讓人興奮的意思。』

老師問：『當我摸摸你的那裡，同時也摸摸我的那裡，然後掰開我的，塞進你的，我是在做什麼?』

1.『腿。』
2.『口袋。』
3.『椰子（Coconut）。』
4.『泡泡糖。』
5.『尿尿。』
6.『好的！』
7.『帳篷。』
8.『結婚戒指。』
9.『鼻子。』
10.『箭。』
11.『救火車（Firetruck）。』
12.『扣釦子。』

好热啊

2009-08-02T07:57:00.001-07:00

近来天气这么热，叫人要死不能死，要活不能活。可是怎么连政治都一样。我不敢说谁对谁错，不过他们的目的是什么。。。。相信现在马来西亚出名了。

Funny clip..must watch

2009-06-20T13:30:00.000-07:00

近况。。。

2009-04-25T04:34:00.000-07:00

四月又要接近尾声了，五月又要到来了。这段期间我做过了什么？我回头往后看了看，有的计划进行中。。。有的搁置了。。。不过我的生活有点恢复正常了（虽然晚上还是很夜睡）。。我再次打回篮球了。。让我有重新活过来的感觉。。。我得重新找过球友。。。健康的身体还是最重要，虽然我还没有像我其中一位老友，机器有点坏（开玩笑），但我的肠胃已不大像以前般，我已不大能吃辣了。。。不然第二天就得请假。。。

说起吃，我得提议替我最近崇拜的名人--蔡澜先生。他与另外三人（其中两位也是我崇拜的对象）被誉为香港四大才子，虽然其中一位已过世。他是一位食家，他吃尽天下美食，从最平民到最珍贵，他无所不吃。他也是为文人，一位风流才子，当你读过他的文章，你就能感觉到。。。哈哈。。。他说什么人都能够批评女人，但在你批评后，永远要记得在最后一句加上“不过还是有例外的。。。

唉。。。。我到底什么时候才能像他一样到处去吃吃喝喝。。。

怀念

2009-03-04T04:45:00.000-08:00

幼稚`白痴。。。无论你说我是那样。。我都得说出来。。。

还记得我们中六玩的网游吗。。。。我太怀念那段日子了。于是我付了钱，再次进到那世界里，可是一切都变了。玩家少了。。。你们不见了。。。

我从头再玩过，不过免费的服务器改了很多。。你们还有兴趣找我吗？

高手赐教。。

2008-11-04T08:41:00.000-08:00

今天见了个客户，心中有点焦急，在还没有建立好关系就急着做我的presentation。结果就在我讲完后，对方第一句话就是问我做了多久。我也不隐瞒照实告诉他。接下来他就告诉我他的看法。由于他已做了五年的推销，因此他一眼就能看出我是新手。真正的高手是不会再未摸清别人的底就把底牌开出来。我也很尴尬。唯有放弃计划，跟他聊个有完没完，一聊就聊了一个多小时。我就把焦点拉回来保险，只不过不是推销产品，只是告诉他一些保险的知识。

一谈之下才发觉原来他的保险知识有限的很，结果又谈了一个多小时，他往家跑了两趟，把自己的保单及女友的保单交给我看，还叫我做份计划星期四给他。心中清醒了不少，原来保险是这样办的。虽然不知星期四会是如何，到底会成交还是白跑一趟？我也不抱着太大的希望。到底我能被拒绝多少次？到底最后我会在唱“不死传说”还是。。。。

陈奕讯-不死传说

2008-11-01T22:51:00.000-07:00

陈奕讯-不死传说

（TVB动画剧集钢之炼金术师主题曲）

若被伤害够

就用一对手痛快的割开昨日诅咒

入夜等白昼

剩下伤痕开始结焦那胸膛

城内快要变作困兽斗人人寻仇赤脚走

天黑黑听朝世界到处也哭了

无尽处充斥了太多纷扰

人类这么渺小

这一刻身边看到振翅那飞鸟

无惧怕高飞去发出光辉

长夜在那方照耀

是你伸手拉我高飞

到高空最高点再掉下这地

然后我高声讲我非贪生怕死

可惜见不到转机

只得忐忑的心永远伤悲

若被伤害够就用一对手

痛快的割开昨日诅咒

入夜等白昼

剩下伤痕开始结焦那胸膛

城内快要变作困兽斗人人寻仇赤脚走

这一刻挥手再见振翅那飞鸟

离别了只得我在等天晓

明白自己多渺小

不奢想伸开两臂会振翅飞去

唯独我血脉如像不死鸟

曾受著猛火烧焦

但我早经等了多久

翻开我伤口世上亦照旧

明白了想不走也找不到借口

深谷找到出口

当中一把声音带我出走

若被伤害够就用一对手

放远将记亿扣住锁扣

立定心就够存亡关头不追悔将这锁匙

投下最远最暗那处我从无回头去远走

行动 vs 思考

2008-10-30T20:22:00.000-07:00

三个猴子到郊外去散步，突然间刮起大风，大雨倾盆而下。三个猴子狼狈地跑，希望能找到能避雨的地方。

突然，眼前出现了一间木屋。三个猴子高兴的跑到木屋前。第一只猴子看了看，然后摇摇头：“门锁上了，没办法进去。”第二只猴子绕了木屋一圈，也摇摇头：“窗子都关好了，不能爬进去。”第三只猴子冷静地说：“别急，我们一起想想办法。” 就在这时候，一阵大风吹来，门被大风吹开了。事实上门根本就没锁上，门只是掩住了。

很多时候，人所受的教育越多，得到的经验多了，就会在遇到问题时停顿下来思考，其实很多问题只要你肯行动就会被解决，根本不用想这么多。朋友，你最近有想多了吗？

感慨。。。

2008-10-15T05:33:00.000-07:00

“人没有牺牲就不会得到什么，人要得到什么就得付出等价的事物。”

整套卡通就是由这一句话打开了剧幕。故事讲述两位具有炼金术天分的兄弟，炼金术是一种类似魔术的技术，但条件是必须要等价的交易。举例：炼金术只可将1kg石灰变成1kg的石像。他们为了将死去的母亲带回来，便使用了被禁止的炼金术-人体提炼。结果弟弟失去了身体，哥哥为了把弟弟的灵魂固定在盔甲上，牺牲了自己的一只手和脚。两人为了寻找方法帮对方复原而展开了辛苦的经历。。。

卡通永远述说着人生的无奈，是否所有的事物都能做等价的交易？付出了十分的努力能获得十分的回报吗？在这成长的过程，我一直都不能给于自己一个肯定的答案。我必须坦诚，我会永远是个活在灰色地带的人，我非正非邪，我不相信有神的存在，我不相信任何人，你如果拥有我太多的秘密，你会发现我已疏远你，因为我在你面前感到不安。只能对你说对不起，这就是我。。。

不过如果你对我说了你的事，你能安心。我从不让自己喝醉，因为我有太多事不能让人知道了。

无奈。。。

2008-10-05T20:50:00.000-07:00

由于看起来我做保险很久了，还看不见任何成绩。事实上我才刚跑市场一个星期，但别人以为我做了这么久都没有成绩。就在一个晚上，我被一位长辈约了出来。他当然是一片好心，希望我能成功。

其实说真的，他所说的事情我都知道。他问我有什么梦想，我坦白地说：我希望我能在四十岁时退休。他接着又问早点退休重要吗。我想了想，重要啊。为什么？他又问。我静了。我心中有个答案，但我不知道是否要告诉他。好听的：我不想工作到老到死，我不想我的生命是为了工作而活。不好听得：我没什么志气。

“我不能接受你这个梦想，你说不出它的重要性，就代表它不是真正地重要。告诉我你希望在这行业得到的三样东西。”

“钱啊！”

“钱真得这么重要吗？”

“重要啊！”

“为什么？”

“没钱什么都不能做啊。”

“我们不要讲得这么肤浅，我们要说career, career就是代表钱嘛。当有人问到你为什么要做保险？你就要说为了拚事业。听起来不但好听些，别人也不会看不起你。还有呢？”

“可以有多些时间跟朋友联络，交补习时间绑得死死的，跟朋友喝茶的时间都没有。”

“就是better lifestyle，很好啊，这就是point 啊，你要学习将你的point讲出来，客户没时间听你胡扯。做保险可以实现这一点，可以让你见多点朋友，不但是联络感情，你也能帮助他们。你做保险认识的人多，所以可以帮他们找工作。朋友见到你的life style 改变了，也会感到压力，也会更加努力。还有呢？”

“想买车啊。”

“怎样的车？”

“还不清楚，honda 吧，对车我没研究。”

“这样不要车，还有其他的吗？”

“买间屋子个家人住啊。”

“怎样的屋子？多少钱的？给谁住？几年后的事？”

“半独立式，大概700k -800k 吧，让我家人，我女朋友的家人住。大概五年后吧!”

“半独立式市价加律师费要1m，头期大概100k，以你的年纪可以借30年，一个月大概6-8k。为什么要给家人住？”

“这是一定的啊。责任嘛。”

“责任更想要是两回事。责任可能是你不想要但必须要做。你会很不心甘情愿地去做。”
“那时我想要的啊。”

“这三个就是你的梦想啊，哇，你好难搞！”

哈哈，我真得好难搞吗？我真的好多时候都不知道自己要什么，朋友你清楚自己要什么吗？不过我清楚的是，我要四十岁退休，我口不说但我要以这目标走去。早退休绝对是个梦想，使我的梦想。

一步一步。。

2008-10-01T10:45:00.000-07:00

前些日子，也不敢说什么借口，就是懒了下来，除了教补习外就是在家玩网游，看连续剧。没到街上去跑业务，人变散漫了，一切懈怠了，心中很是不自在。虽然知道不能再这样，但冷了下来的机器很难再启动，结果就不知觉中度过了两个多月。就在上个星期，听了半个讲座（何为半个？因为我迟到了，两个小时的讲座只听了一个小时）。

他是一位保险从业员。讲到的都是些关于销售技巧及激励士气的事，其中就是一日一步，一年就是三百六十五步。我听了当场当头棒喝。对，没错。我每天睁开眼第一件事就是想到要把一大堆的事情办完，可是到最后一件也没办成。我应该一天办一件事，一个星期下来五天（现在都是工作五天制嘛）就办了五件事。

结果就在星期一，我终于办成了两个多月来的第一件工作。你呢？你的第一步走了吗？

一個罐子跟兩杯咖啡 - 再忙也一定要看完!!

2008-09-28T21:31:00.000-07:00

一個罐子跟兩杯咖啡 - 再忙也一定要看完!!
這一天的哲學課，教授站上了講台

他卻不發一語，只是從講桌底下拿出了一個空的美乃滋瓶罐。

接著他拿出了一袋高爾夫球

他把整袋的高爾夫球塞進了美乃滋空罐裡

然後教授就問學生同不同意這個罐子已經是滿的了

學生們當然是同意。

接著，教授又從桌子下拿出了一杯小小的鵝卵石

他慢慢地把鵝卵石往罐子倒邊倒邊搖，不一會兒所有的高爾夫球間的縫隙竟也都填滿了鵝卵石。

這時，教授又問學生同不同意這個美乃滋罐子已經是滿了？？？

學生當然是同意。

可是，話才剛說完教授又從講桌底下拿出了一杯細沙子

教授又用同樣的方法邊倒邊搖的把沙子填滿了鵝卵石之間的小縫隙。

教授又問了大家同不同意這回罐子是真正的滿了？？？

同學說應該是全滿了，沒有空間了。

想不到同學才剛答完話教授又從講桌下拿出了<>兩杯咖啡來

開始徐徐地往美乃滋罐子裡倒直到兩杯咖啡全部到進罐子裡，一滴也不剩。

倒完咖啡後教授笑著對同學們說：『現在的美乃滋罐子才是真正的滿了啦。』

同學們也跟著笑了起來

就在整個教室的歡笑聲裡教授說話了『你們知道我今天做這個表演，是要告訴你們什麼嗎？

我是要用這個美乃滋罐來告訴你們一個道理

一個關於我們一生的哲理。

這個美乃滋空罐就是我們的人生

高爾夫球就是我們生命中的一些大事情例如：上帝，家庭，小孩，朋友，健康，還有你的摯愛。

生命裡沒有那些小鵝卵石或沙子是沒關係的

可是要是缺了這些大事情我們的生命根本沒有意義。

小小的鵝卵石就是我們生命中的其他的事情例如：工作，房子，車子等等東西。

至於那細沙子就是我們生命中的小事情那些細微不重要的瑣事。

今天我的表演....如果是一開始就先把細沙子灌滿美乃滋罐子那就根本沒有空間好放入高爾夫球跟鵝卵石

同樣地，如果我是先倒鵝卵石那也是會沒有空間好給高爾夫球。

我們的生命就是這樣的

如果你儘是把寶貴的時間花在細微的瑣事上你就不可能有時處裡重要的事情。

所以，我們該多花時間去注意那些會關係到我們快樂與幸福的事情

多跟我們的小孩一起

多去陪陪我們的父母、祖父母，

多些時間給家人

多注意自己的身體健康

不要擔心家事做不完

不用擔心房子還沒粉刷

不要擔心花園還沒整理

我們會找到時間來做這些事情的

先多花些心思在那些重要的大事情上吧!!

生命只有一回我們把事情的輕重緩急跟優先順序弄清楚生命才會有意義

教授說到這裡! 有個同學舉手了....教授，那兩杯咖啡又代表著什麼呢？

『我很高興你問這個，』教授回答道

這兩杯咖啡就是要告訴我們不管我們的美乃滋罐看起來是裝得多滿

我們總是可以有空間跟朋友一起享受杯咖啡的！我們的一生似乎總是這麼的忙有這麼多的事情要處裡

似乎是一天的 24 小時總是不夠用？如果你還是這麼想的話想想『一個美乃滋罐子跟兩杯咖啡』的故事吧。

真真假假

2008-09-18T07:10:00.000-07:00

世界上到底有些什么是真实的，什么是虚假的？诚实似乎只有在课本里找得到。现实的诚实是种奢侈的，虚假才是必要的。为了让孩子放心，父母编织了完美的童话来掩饰现实的黑暗。可是当孩子长大了，当他们就能够分辨真假的时候，他们的心中会有怎样的感想？到头来伤害到谁？

政治家是人民的代表，是被选来为人民办事的。可是为了地位，政治家瞒上瞒下，把真相藏在谎言的背后。到最后谁才是受害者？谁才是最后的胜利者？冷眼旁观吧！

怕什么？

2008-09-17T05:01:00.000-07:00

怕什么？有什么好怕的？堂堂男子汉，竟然会为了小事裹足不前，真是让人笑话。你的胆在哪？给老鼠偷了吗？在这样下去，你往后的日子怎样过？不但你自己瞧不起自己，连你的朋友也会看不起你，你永不会有抬头的日子。从前说做就做，今日却畏前怕后，一点都不像你，从前的你快滚回来！

盐与光

2008-09-04T12:43:00.000-07:00

“你们是地上的盐，如果盐失了味，怎能使它再咸？结果毫无用处，唯有丢在外面任人践踏。你们是世上的光，人点了灯，不会放在量器底下，而是放在灯台上，照亮一家人。”

这是我取之于圣经的一句话。一个简单的道理，能让人有不同的领悟。你领悟了什么吗？

BATMAN-The Dark Knight!

2008-07-20T09:42:00.001-07:00

By the way, go and watch the movie "Batman- The dark Knight".

Highly recommended!

GET AWAY!

2008-07-20T09:20:00.001-07:00

I need a get away. Only now that i can understand why they said that all the promoters and salespeople need to be very tough minded as well as high resistance to stress. I'm just at the beginning of starting my sale career, i don't feel any stress. I have to admit that i am a person that are low sensitivity to my feeling. How could i not stress? i haven't closed any sale yet. My target is only completed about 1/12 if i include my whole family's policy. I mean i should be feeling stressful. I may be a very good of observation. Good at guessing what are people thinking, what are hiden behind. I could never understand myself.

I have to complete my target before December. I want to get away from all this. Hiding in the jungle would be a very nice choice (if my the other half does not kill me first). Away from all the numbers and people, stop doing what i'm doing. I change my target. I will focus on my students' parents first, only then i would focus on my friends. I need to sleep soundly at night before i can meet up and get along with all my friends. I can only do that by getting nearer to my sales target. Tomorow onward, i would start calling the parents and present the saving plan to them. "Some will buy, some wouldn't, so what, find many." That's what in my mind right now. If 1 out of 10 will buy after my presentation, that i would find 100 to presents. 1/10 times 100 = 10 people.

Still, i would be very happy if anyone of my friends would ask me to service them. We are friends and providing insurance information to you all are my jobs now. At least understand it before you resist it. In Japan, averagely one person would have 6 policies. In singapora averagely one person would have 2+ policies. Do you think that people that are in such brilliant country as Singapora and Japan would inevest in something that are useless and rubbish?

Aiya, trying to tell people that i want to get away and still writing all about insurance. I'm definitely addicted to it already.

Sleepless Night!

2008-07-17T10:40:00.000-07:00

It is almost 2 in the midnight. I still can't get into sleep. It's been almost a week, i just don't know what happen. Is it because of change of working atmosphere? The working atmosphere when i was teaching in the learning disabilities centre is very far different from what i'm doing now. Everything seem to be in a specific order during that period. However, selling insurance is not something that in order. Change happen all the time. May be is the sudden changes that make me sleepless.

Or may be i'm thinking too hard this few days. I keep on thinking how to get appointment with others so that i can close sale and hit my target. I still can't get any numbers that i can call up to get appointment. Luckily i got one appointment today and tomorow. Or may be it is due to my condition. I'm not really feeling too well this few days.

Still can't get the answer that i need. Hopefully, i will feel sleepy after i finish this post.

TARGET!

2008-07-16T09:55:00.000-07:00

i start selling business this week. Officially, i need to meet up with friends. That's what my OA said. Starting with friends will make everything easy. I doubt it. I call all the friends that i think will be free to come out. No one bother to come out, too busy they say. After so many calls, finally i manage to have an appointment on Thursday. An old friend that i haven't seen for about 5 years. I don't think he know that i'm selling insurance right now. I don't want to scare him away. So tomorow i think i will just ask him to give me some contacts so that i can do some cold calling. Friendship is too important to lose.

So more, my target this year will be 50k collected premium to be promoted. If my friends you would like to help me, please ask me out. I just need some phone number so that i can do cold calling.

After Psychology

2008-07-15T01:39:00.000-07:00

To be honest, i'm officially a full time insurance agent that is very very free. Today i try to ask a long time didn't see friend come out to have lunch. I got lost. His working place is at SS 23, i went to S23. So, the lunch blow off. I had to went home and eat mee. Only now that i notice, students are no so free. I try to ask my friends that are still studying for lunch, their answer- i'm having a class now. Ale, i'm just want some1 come to have lunch. - - "

刺猬与犀牛

2008-07-02T04:09:00.000-07:00

世界上有两种人，第一种被形容为刺猬。刺猬一碰到麻烦就会躲到一旁撑起刺，不动声色；第二种人被形容为犀牛，任何情况都会趴土低头，准备攻击。当两个人在一起时，难免会有争执及意见不一样的时候。可是刺猬一味躲避问题，到了不能再忍的时候，就会成了火爆的犀牛。人与人相处，若无争吵，必定是其中一方是刺猬，一味的忍让，到了最后必会一发不能收拾。因此刺猬应学会如何表达不满，犀牛也应知道什么时候该后退的时候，因为要知道退一步才能看清楚真正的天空。

SAP

2008-06-02T02:11:00.000-07:00

This is the first week in the SAP. SAP stand for School Age Program. Children in SAP are already in the age to go to primary. However due to their disabilities, they will not be able to cope themselves in school. The learning sections in SAP are quite similar with EIP only SAP has 1 addition section- language time. Different groups in SAP actually learning different things in this section. For SAP 1, they are learning sentences such as cleaning ourselves and so on. For SAP 2, they are learning about awareness toward others, for example we can only hug and kiss our family. For SAP 3, they only learn to brush their teeth.
First day in SAP, I was assigned to shadow aid a boy. Shadow aiding means that I have to focus on a boy help him to focus on the lessons going on and more importantly I need to make sure that the boy would not run away from his place. I thought that it would be easy but in the end it was a nightmare. The child did not cry, the child did not scream, but he threw things. I was unable to estimate his movement. For example, I asked him to out counters on the dots. After telling him what to do, he put his hand into the basket. Assuming that he wants to take counter, I began to feel happy. The next thing I knew was the basket and counters were all over the floor. He did show me any sign. The same event happens over and over again the whole session. By the time the sessions ended, I was feeling very desperate. It was not the first time I bullied by a student, but I always able to change the situation by given some kinds of punishments such as extending the tuition time or telling the parents. It will always work. However I surrender for this particular child. Even I ask him to pick every counters as punishment, he seem stopped throwing things. Only after the session, my colleague told me that never ask that particular child to pick things up. I wonder. Lecturers always told us that it is one way to teach the child about consequences. I confused. Then my colleague told me that that particular child seem to like picking things.
Only then I realized what happen, what support to be punishments now become reinforcement for the child. He likes to pick things up. Therefore he would throw things onto the floor, and then people will ask him to pick it up. No wonder he keeps on throwing things. One man meat is another man poison. We have to always checking with the parents while handling the children in order to use the most effective reinforce or punishment to motivate the children. In my case, I used the wrong punishment for that particular child so he never stops throwing things.

Orang Kelainian Upaya

2008-04-20T21:57:00.000-07:00

PENANG Yang di-Pertua Negri Tun Abdul Rahman Abbas has suggested that the term ‘orang kurang upaya’ (disabled persons) be changed to ‘orang kelainan upaya’ (people with different capabilities).

He said the name change was necessary as the connotation suggested that the disabled lacked in abilities.

“I believe we should not hurt the feelings of these special people by addressing them as disabled.

“They have many other abilities that we should be proud of,” he said when closing the Telematch for Disabled Children 2008 at Dataran Pemuda Merdeka in Butterworth last Sunday.

State Health, Welfare and Caring Society Committee chairman Phee Boon Poh said he agreed with Abdul Rahman’s suggestion, noting that many disabled people, especially the blind, had a good sense of feeling and hearing.

“I have asked the State Welfare Department to retain the abbreviation, OKU, but to change it from ‘orang kurang upaya’ to ‘orang kelainan upaya’ in its future references,” he said.

Earlier, Phee said the telematch provided an opportunity for the disabled to show their talents and potentials in sporting activities, apart from allowing them to integrate with the public.

“The disabled may not feel ostracised if everyone adopts a caring culture to include them in the mainstream of society,” he said.

Phee said the state had allocated RM624,360 to 24 Community Rehabilitation Centres (PDK) in Penang this year, adding that another RM6mil had been allocated to 23 charitable non-governmental organisations.

internship

2008-03-25T09:17:00.000-07:00

Second day in the SPICES, although i only observed the others doing their works, teaching the children with autism, ADHP, and down- symdrom, it was a eye-opening experiences. Even heard a lot of our lecturers telling their experiences, how the children with autism and ADHP look like other children, i still want to say it: Man! they are realy just like other children. They are cute like so call normal children. They are playful like so call normal children. What make they different is autism child tend to have no eye contact with others, most of they have no speech as we learn to speak through observing people. Most of them have some weird behavior. For example, one of the children running while looking at her palm. The other one would be swing his hand over and over again.

Well after wednesday off day, i will be starting to be the one that teaching. It is quite similar with tuition- one to one for those child that are hard to control, a small group when they grew older. Again, they are just like other children of the kindergarten when they are still young.

Insurans Package for male and female age 24

2008-03-18T04:01:00.000-07:00

This is the package that i design for female age 24. This package is consider to be the cheapest protection where you can enjoy all the medical card, conpesation for death, permenant disablility, 36 diseases, and so on. Furthermore, this package also free 1 years personal accident insurans. However this package only valid until August. Call me for further details. We can have chance to meet as well for friendship purpose.

These are two packages offered by me. As you can see, male insuran is more cheaper than female. Same as the female, these package only valid until August.

Dream!!!

2007-11-17T23:46:00.000-08:00

I called a friend to chat. In the conversation, i said something that i think is not suitable. I apologise. I misused the words. I'm so sorry if you feel offended. Actually what i really mean is that i have a dream. A dream that we all do things in a gang.

I really think that we are the best gang in the world. Before i go out with you all, all my dreams are about myself. Early retirement life- i think most of you heard about my dream. Some of you said i was just like 'abat'. In my teen age and i already think about retirement. My dream change after that, it no longer only about myself, it about us- i want to enjoy life with you all.

I want to do a lot of things with you all. I want to go around the world with our gang; hiking, bagpacking, travelling and so on. However, all these will only come true if we are rich- all of us are rich. No need to be as rich as uncle Lim that just passed away, but at least no need to worry for money. Then my dream can come true. This is what i really mean. Let me try what is the easiest way and the fastest to achieve it.

Long last our friendship!!!!

Farewell!

2007-09-30T19:56:00.000-07:00

Last Friday, my students from the centre gave me a farewell ceremony. It make me recall the first birthday i had with MDBC. I recall how it like when my nose was fulled with cake. Only this time was my ear that filled with cake. They were having the cake ceremony with me. It had been a pleasure to teach them. Their classes were those i enjoyed teaching. Thanks for giving me such a good time.

Reture back...

2007-09-25T09:38:00.000-07:00

I attended a talk last week. Here is a joke from a speaker.
Three top insurans agents is having holiday at somewhere, they stayed in the highest hotel at that particular place, about 65 floors. They went out shopping and eating all the delicious food they can get. When they get back to the hotel, the lobby was fulled with tourists. The frontdesk manager approached them, 'So sorry sirs, our lifts are out of order.' They were either sleep at the lobby or change to other hotels. They looked at each others, coming up with the same decision- ' we are the top agents, we deserve to stay in the tallest building- we will use the stair!'

They started moving, 65 floors, so they decided to do something, one of them suggested,' let's sing' they sang and 20 floors had passed. Then the other one suggested,' let's tell joke', they laughed along and 20 floors had passed.The last one suggested,' let's tell our sad stories during selling the insurans. They cried all along. When it was almost there, suddenly one of them say, ' you all want a sad story, i give you one- i leaved the key at the frontdesk!'

Even though you left the key at frontdesk, you can return to get it. But if you reach 65 years old and you found yourselves missing something/no saving, you can return back to 20 years old. INSURANS may be able to help you

Pay for the Best!!!

2007-09-22T08:51:00.000-07:00

My leadership lecturer say it to us...pay for the best!! I was so agree with it. If you want the best people to work with you, definitely you have to pay more. Even for small company, to make some good workers stay, pay more is definitely what you needed to do at the first place. Think about it, who want to do more work and being pay less. Wll the person would not be me. Even for new workers, the moment they found that they are already capable of doing anything, they would not be so stupid and stay for the beginner salary for long.

Therefore if you want to have a better worker or hoping that your workers will work harder, pay for it. It is very rare to find a best

What man u wan to b?

2007-08-29T00:36:00.000-07:00

What type of man i want to be? It is a question that i have been asking myself since i was a child. There are a lot of answers that appear in my mind thoughout my growing up. I want to be like Wesley in the scientific fictions - brave and dare to do anything as long as it is right. I want to be like Zhao Yu in the story of Romance of Three kingtom -brave heart and invulnerable. I want to be like Yang Gua - dare to do anything for love. Besides all of these, i want to be a rich man - well, not too rich, i just want to have early retirement.

Still until now, i think i change into someone that i hardly know. I am now poor, too careful in my choice, and lastly, i lost contact with most of my friends. I feel like i am now too busy chasing money, I lost my direction. Last night, i chat with a friend of mine. I told him my plan. I told him that my plan will work. However in my heart, i am scare like hell. How can i be so sure that the plan work? What if the plan do not work out like what i expected and the relationship with my friend then break? What if i am no longer the wei kheong that i know? I lost confident in myself.

I know that i should be trying some job before i open my own business, furthermore i have no modal now. I will be working on it. I know it is no easy way to become a rich man, but i hope i will not become the man that i hate.

Insurans...

2007-08-03T01:20:00.000-07:00

Hi, brothers and sisters, i try to get into the insurans company so if your are interested or need to know more about insurans. Please save some money and some times. Wait for me...

Money! Money! Money!

2007-08-03T00:59:00.000-07:00

I attended a talk. A talk from insurans company, he actually said :" Money is not everything but 95% of the things is about money." I am totally agree with him. Without money, we can do nothing. Another saying that i heard is that :"If money can handle/solve the problem, then it is not a problem." Yes, money can solve many problems. Everyone know that.

The point i stress here is that, everything that i talk about at the beginning will only works if the money is yours, not your father's or any of your friends'. You have to remember that if the money is not yours, you have to open mouth to get it. Even your father is a millionaire, he will get you some faces to see. Although that my mother told me a hundred of time when i was small, but somehow in someway, i don't fully believe it. In my heart, i thought that if my father is that rich, he would not care that i take a little from him. I was wrong. Even that you are using the money for some things benificial, still the money is not yours. You will never know what the rich man will let you see what face.

Of course i am not the one the having this problem, but somehow i feel bad for my friend, if his father will/want to pay him the money, why didn't he give it with a better face. Moreover, my friend only need it for his education. So my friend, be as rich as his father, so that you would not be the son.

Tuition...

2007-07-28T03:10:00.000-07:00

Lately, some of the teachers are very anxious. Worrying that they might get caught as now they are limited not to give tuitions more than 4 hours per week. Once they are caught, there will be no promotion for them in 10 years. Students that so used to have tuition classes now suffer.

From my opinions, this regulation is not appropriate. From my own experiences, some of the teachers really work hard in order for their students to score in the examination. Not only in the schools but in other places as well. That's why a lot of the parents willing to payextra money to get a school teacher to teach their children-RM50 per hour. Lets think from the teacher's point of view. Are the salary they get from the school enough to pay all the expences? Lets calculate- paying all the loan-transportation-RM 300, Home loan-RM500, meal-RM20 per day which make it RM600 per month. Rough calculation for a teacher that is single and without any parents-RM1400 per month and how much is the salary? Consider that the teacher need to give some money to the parents as well as trying to find a companion.

Some of the people may think that it is a way to improve the teachers' qualities. For my own opinion, it is no effective. Teachers that give tuition outside school who i consider to be the extra hardworking of course it is an undenial truth that they do it for money, they might be tire but when we think that the company actually pay money for their workers to works overtime. Then what's wrong if the teachers give tuitions. Moreover, some of the students really need helps. It is about the educations, not about the teachers. A student that merely know all the alphabets is allow to study in Form 5. It is not the teachers' faults.

Even if the teachers do not teach tuitions outside the schools, how sure are you that they will be a good teacher? Make your conclusion- Give extra tuition outside schools= low quality teacher?
No give extra tuition outside schools= high quality teacher?

Plan change....

2007-06-30T07:11:00.000-07:00

Still remember last time i say how smart my boss is? Still remember i said that i will give in two years time in the center? My plan change. Yesterday, i told my boss that i want to quit, quit everything in that center. It's been 1 year and 8 months since i work there. Really, it's been a waste of time, from having expectation and hope to hopeless and disappointment, at least i learn something, i knew how to teach or using teaching to earn money.

From the beginning, my boss, me and another colleague said that together, we will work that center up. When time passby, we realised what was happening, just like my ex-colleague say, my boss only sat on the same boat, we were the 1 that roll. When we became tire, he just sat there. Only directing but not doing anything. When the boat started to sink, he jumped to the motorboat that follow behind and go away, leaving us dying. I laughed when my ex-colleague sms me. Yes that's what was happening. After my colleague's leaving, i take most of the classes, my boss "take over" two classes. He promised to find me some tutors to take over back some of the classes that i take. It was almost 4 months, still the same things happening. Futhermore he does not really commit himself, he always absent and ask me to take over his class. Excuse- overtime at his job. I was really angry with that. Then my ex-colleague told me something, my boss actually has teach home tuition. I was cross- how can he does that, teaching home tuition at the other days and absent for the classes that he promise to take over all the time.

I looked for home tuition outside though agent and i find 1-RM 45 per hours, 2.5 hours per week. It was much more better than the paid i got now. My boss tried to convince me to stay for 3 months. He said he will cut down my time at the center into 3 days and tried to maintain my paid, i have not said yes, i need to see something, i need no more words, i need action. I do not care about our friendship anymore, and i do not see our relationship as friendship as well. It was onli a job. We don't even know each others before the job. So don't brother me to make me stay.

Move on....

2007-05-21T20:18:00.000-07:00

May be i started my journey too ealy. I always look back at the live i used to have at Kampar. Wondering if i'm the only one that have change. Sometime when my live here is too tiring i will think that may be i should go back to the live that go out with MDBC, bark with them, and so on. That weekend, without my gf, i had a visit to the place i used to hang out when i was at Kampar.

Surprisingly, most of the things change, it is no longer the place i knew. What was leaved - only memories, the lake i liked is now a land, the path that i walked now is a place that i'm no longer familiar with. I suddenly realised that i should move on, there is no need for me to stay with the memories that i have. New live is awaiting. I am relieved. I am on the correct path. I am ready to move on further. Then the news came, once again, a surprise- the death of my father. I was stunned. The scene that i have seen in the T.V came alive. I never imagine my father will end up in this way. He is a careful driver, a careful motorcyclist. Yet, accident still happen. I knew that i will never know how the accident happen, i can't reason his death. It made me more difficult to accept it. He died in a horrible way, i can't imagine what will happen to my mum if she saw him in this situation(She was outside when i was asked to recognise my father's body). Lucikily thanks to forensic, they actually sew back my father's head.

I cut my hair. It is very short now, he liked my hair short. Now i have to move on. Live become more difficult without his helps. One thing i know is nomatter how hard i try, one of my dream has gone forever.

Lost...

2007-05-19T06:48:00.000-07:00

it was almost a week, every thing happens so sudden and i'm always think that i was in a dream. I try to wake up, but i can't, it was not a dream. It is real, real real real. Last Sunday was mother's day, we went to Jusco to eat Sushi, we laughed, we ate, we were happy and enjoyed. It was the first time i brought my family to have lunch at Ipoh. The next day, i lost him. It was a big lost, i still can't accept it in some ways, it takes time. Dad, why you leaved us! I can't took over your reponsiblilities, it was too heavy and i was too young. I was not ready in any way. I was not indepentant enough. You dropped the whole family on my shoulder, my shoulder was not wide enough.

They said at least you get to eat with your sons before you leaved but do you know how suffer i am now. I always think i can spend my time with you when i retire. I always think i can take you and mum to go oversea. I always want to buy a new car for you and i will drive the old Proton. Why you can wait for a year or two. I am saving money for the car now, it will take only another year. Mum was so sad, it was really hard for me, brother and sister to pretend nothing had happen in front of her. We cry whenever mother is no around.

I miss you, dad. We miss you.

Betrayal?

2007-05-02T04:16:00.000-07:00

After waking up today, i actually tried to do my assignment. It was a two day holiday. Public holidays, so i did not need to teach tuition as well as go to college. No disturbance, best timing to complete 3 of my assignment which the due date are next week. However the line was so lag, i give up, i open the television. A program attract my attention. The program actually found 2 couples that having third party issues. The girls were actually claimming that their boy friends actually having "affair" with the so called their boyfriend's godsister.

The 1st couples i believe it was some coincident misunderstood, while the second couples i sure that the boyfriend is guity. At first he and his god sister did not admit, but this is what he say in the end of the program;' I think that she is too controlling, we are still young, i think we should let each other try more!'
His girl friend shouted,' OH GOD! Do u know what were you saying!'

The boy friend is 26. What do u mean still young? I thought 26 years is the age when everyone already settle down and found their directions. Man, find a better excuse! Affair is affair, no matter what u say, betrayal is betrayal! Excuses such as "i make the mistake that every man make" or "Every man is like that" are unacceptable. What do u do if your girl friend is having affair with other man and then tell you" I make the mistake that every man make!"

I always believe that 21 years old is the age when everyone has to reponsible for what they have done, what they dicide. Come on, once you 21, you are a man/woman, no longer a teenager, a boy, or a girl, be like a man/woman! Take your responsiblities!

One of my assignment(brochure)

2007-05-02T04:00:00.000-07:00

One of my assignments is to create a brochure for the topic that i need to present on. This brochure contribute 10% of my final while the presentation contribute another 5 %. Look like quite pro, right? HAhaha......Anyway, in total i still have 8 assignment along the way. Wish me luck for it.

Learned Helplessness!!!

2007-04-04T19:31:00.000-07:00

One of my lectures, we actually talked about learned helplessness. People become helplessness when the situations around always disappoint them, sooner and later that particular person will get used of the disappointment and think that he could not do any thing to change the situation. One of my classmates actually asked the question." Are Malaysian children having the same problem?" My lecturer agreed. She explain that Malaysian Children are somehow get too comfortable with the presence of a maid where the maid does every thing for them from washing the shoes to feeding them. One of the cases that she had saw was that the child actually have never wore shoes by himself. The maid actually cooks and feeds the child even at the age of 10.

His parents are from China where they have the one child policy. Therefore having the only child at the home, they actually too worry that any accident that may occur to the child even from falling down, knock himself and so on. When my lecturer was telling us the case, I was laughing in my heart. My course mate that pin point that Malaysian Children as the example is also in the similiar category. She does not know how to cook. That is fine with me. Who say women have to learn about cooking. It is not sexual discrimination. Only that, she said she does not know how to cook so she does not want to learn about it. She added on, if she learn how to cook, then she will be the one that cook in the house. So why does she want to learn to cook if that will makes her suffering.

Yes, that a good a example of learned helplessness. When someone is so get use of a situation, he or she will become lazy to change. Even me, i know that teaching tuition like i do now was suffering, i do think about quitting, but once i thought about how i going to find RM 1000 every month if i quit, I swallow back all the thinking. Helpless!!!!!!!!!!

Which brain of urs function better? Are u visual learner or aural learner?

2007-03-21T16:04:00.000-07:00

You have a balanced brain — able to draw on the strengths of both the right and left hemispheres depending on context. Typically, people with balanced right and left hemispheres are very comfortable with switching between local and global perspectives — that is, paying attention to both small details and larger issues when the circumstance indicates. That means they can identify elements that make up an image or situation and also attend to the larger, more holistic pattern or unified whole that those details comprise.

You are able to capitalize on the left hemisphere's skills in verbal communication as well on the right hemisphere's focus on patterns and association making. This rare combination makes you a very creative and flexible thinker.

Depending on the situation, you may rely on one hemisphere or the other. Some situations may lend themselves to using your right brain's creativity and flexibility while other situations may call for a more structured approach as dictated by your left brain.

That's how your brain processes information. And while your dominant brain hemisphere certainly contributes to the way you process information, there is also a style of learning, unrelated to your dominant hemisphere, that determines the ways in which you are best able to pick up information. When you're learning something new, your dominant brain hemisphere will want to take over. But there are times when the information being presented is not well suited to your dominant hemisphere's abilities. That's why, in addition to your hemispheric dominance, you also have a style of learning that is dominant for you.

Whether you know it or not, you are naturally predisposed to learning things visually, aurally, or through a combination of the two. Your test results show that you are a visual learner. Other balanced-brained people who are visual learners are scientist and theoretician Buckminster Fuller, painter Pablo Picasso, news anchor Tom Brokaw, and scientist Stephen Hawking. But before delving deeper into how you learn, you should get the basics of your brain's physiology.

LATE!!!!

2007-03-12T08:01:00.000-07:00

Timing is one of the problems that the government face during the process of building up the image of wonderful country in the eye of the world. Malaysian tend to be late in everything. From late to school, late to dinner even to late to work .

When i was small, one of my teacher told me Chinese are terrible as they always late for everything especially wedding dinner. He was right. I was always feeling bad when the invitation card listed that the dinner was at 6pm and all of the guests only started to arrive at 6.30pm. If you are the type that are on time which mean you come to a wedding dinner at 6pm, advice to you: eat something before you come and bring a book with you, you have a lot of time. If you attend dinner at KL, please bring more than one book. Last year, i had the opportune to attend my cousin's wedding dinner. I regret. I regret that i din't bring anything. The dinner should start at 8.30pm instead of 6.30pm. I need to accompany my parents so we actually arrive there at 5 something. Imagine that kind of feeling.

Today, i went to the Kompleks Sukan Negara Bukit Jalil for swimming. I actually wanted to go there in the morning but it only open at 3pm. We started driving at 2.30pm as i have tuition class at 6pm. I need to arrive at the center at about 5.30pm. By the time we arrived there, it was 5 minutes before 3. However we spend another 20 minutes before we get into the swimming pool. The cashier was late. There were another two western guy that were waiting there. They seem already got used of this situation. Once they saw nobody at the counter, they straight away get into the cafeteria nearby. At 3.15pm, the staff came, female, race: not sure.

Shameful, Kompleks Sukan Negara> Late also

Questions & Answers

2007-03-10T09:14:00.000-08:00

Someone actually called and asked me was i doing the wrong thing for posting my last post. My immediate reaction is no!! Then another question: what if B would revenge on me? I was stunned. What a good question. I thought about it over and over again. Some of my friends may say:" Wow, I thought you would not regret on the thing that you had done?"

I do regret on something. I always look back the things that i had done. Not only regret, i felt depressed when i think about them. I was young, i made decisions without too much thinkings and i was wrong. However, i didn't have much responsiblility as well that time. Not like today, i have to worry about my degree, my job, as well as taking care of someone that means a lot to me included my family and my girl friend. They are my responsiblility now. I start reliease that every thing that i have done would affect them. Not only that, they are the thing that are the most valuable in my lives. I would give up anything to protect them.

Anyone that hurt them, no matter what the cost, i would make sure they get what they deserve. Without them, i am alone, i can do anything without thinking. For my friend that ask that particular questions, this is the answer.

Why i quit Friendster.....

2007-03-06T07:23:00.000-08:00

A lot of my friends ask about my friendster account.They want to add me in their friend list. The moment i told them that i do not have one. Their next question will be why. I smile. I used to have a friendster account, i deleted it. An incident happened. I did not want to talk about it but last night i was sitting in front of the computer and someone mention it again.

Then i think again, it was not a big secret, why i did not tell others about it. I start typing this post. I used to date with B. After about 1 year, i broke up with her. I did not want some one that is bad temper to be the one. Although she apologize right after each incident. I did not want a bom beside me. Later after breaking up, she tried to get me back. However what i regret was i was not the bad person that i hope i can be. I deal with her softly. Thinking that she will understand sooner or later. Then i went to KL for working right after my STPM. I found a love shape that make out of 10 ringgit note. Thinking that it was my, i used it. Then i receive some sms from a phone number telling me that she was B's friend, start lecturing me. Telling me that how B in love with me and so on. I knew it was B, so i tried to tell her that we were done. Then she told me that B put love shape that made out of 10 ringgit note in my wallet before i leaved kampar. I suddenly realised what happen. She asked me out and take my wallet for her plan.

I met with my girl friend at my work place. After 1 month, we start dating. I still remember the first time we went out was Chinese New Year, i brought her back to my home. We started doing thing like the other couples do- uploading our picture onto the friendster. Weird thing happened, the pictures that i upload as well as the information that i put in the friendster would automatically change or deleted. Then i realise that someone must be getting into my account and change the information. I changed my password. However same thing happened. Not knowing what to do i change everything from the password to the email address that i used. Finally it was solved.

Then my girl friend started receive sms from the number that sms me- scolding her as well as telling her that we would not end happily and so on. My girl friend also received miss call even mid night. I was so angry that i wanted to went back to Kampar and slapped B. My girl friend stopped me. She did not want me to do that, she was so kind that she change her phone number that her father gave her. I change mine as well. That's why i lost all the contact with all my friends. How B know my girl friend' number? Simple answer- from my younger brother. B called my brother and pretend to be my friend that was looking for me. My brother gave her both number as she asked for both.

Changing phone number gave us a moment of peace. One day, my girl that came back from college cried right after she saw me. After that, she told me that someone used her picture edit some dirty words and sent it to all her friends. I was shocked. I check back, that particular person named james in the friendster added me 1 month before the incident. I thought he is a friend of my and though me he add my girl friend. Then he add my girl friend's friend and sent them the picture. What a plan! I wanted to kill someone at that moment but once again my girl friend stopped me and we quit friendster.

If u ask me why am i so sure it was B, simple
- only B know my wallet have a love shape make out of 10 ringgit note.
- you can know my friendster password if u know my email address and the password- B know it

By the way, B stand for Bitch

A Very Bad DAY!!

2007-03-03T10:06:00.000-08:00

This Saturday was a very bad day for me. There were at least 4 bad incidents that happened in that particular day. First of all, i forget to switch off the air-conditional of the tuition center the night before, the very morning that i arrive at the center, i notice that the center air was cold. However i did not reliease that it was the air-conditional of the classroom. Then one of my students came and went into the room, he slipped. To my horror, the floor of that particular classroom was wet more accurately full of water. If u ask me what the hell the air-condition has to do with the water. Well, the residents that live downstair complaint about the air-conditional water falling. So we connect the air-conditional with a pipe and let the water flow into a pail. That's why this situation happen. After giving homeworks to the students, i had to mop the floor.

After that my class end at 12.30pm and i had to fetch some of the students home. However there was another girl whose mother will only came at 1.00pm. I could waited for her mother to come as i had another class at 1.00pm, having no other choices, i took her with me. When we came back at about 1.05pm, her aunt was waiting downstair. I greeted her with a broad smile and she 'greet' me back. She started scolding me for bringing her niece out without telling her or the girl's parents which i admit it was my mistake(it was my another mistake that i leaved my handphone at the center accidentally). I was so embarrased being scolded in front of the girl. Her aunt even asked me who will be the one that reponsible if any accident happened during the period i took the girl out. What i was not happy was her aunt even scold the girl for following me out.

Another thing was happening in the online game that i play. That morning i bought something in the game with all the money i have in the game(7 Millions) + the money i borrow from a student of mine(2 Millions). Thinking that i could earn about 5 millions in the game by selling the equipment with (14 Millions). However without noticing it, i type 1399999 as the price of the item and went out for my tuition classes. By the time i noticing it, it was aridi 12.30pm which is 4 hours later. I lost 7.6 Millions(13999999-1399999= 76000000). 7.6 Millions in the game equal to RM100 in real life. I still thinking what should i told my student.

So the day continued, before i started my third class. I refill the ink of the marker pen. I was such an idiot that my hand could not hold the ink bottle and the bottle fall onto the floor. I had to mop the floor for the second time for the day. The whole classroom was smelling. That moment i suddenly remember that my colleague ask me to buy toilet paper for the center and i forget about it. How could i clean the floor without toilet paper. I have to used old newspaper. My situation was so pathetic.

By the time i finish my classes, it was aridi 8pm. I was dying. Please no more bad day.

New Year and Effects...

2007-02-21T06:11:00.000-08:00

My new year break came to an end when i went back to K.L. There were some thing that i had done in these short period. I went back to my hometown-- Kampar at last Saturday. There was a huge jam from K.L to the highway. Inside the highway, there was another jam. The distance was about less than 10km and i spend 3.5 -4 hours in it. I was quite anxious as there were 40 chicken wings at the back of my car for the BBQ later. I thought they would spoil. Luckily i did not hear anyone having food poisoning sypmtoms from MDBC.

We were quite happy that night with almost all the doggies present except the poor Mr. Diu. The BBQ start about 10pm and end at 3.30am. Everyone received a present that Mr. Yap brought back from Bali. I believe that someone kept the present for Mr. Diu. From the gathering that we were having, i believe that i would be the one that change the most physically. It was a huge change. (50kg -58kg)

Anyway, 2 days in Kampar and i met with all the friends that i missed the most. We should all gather once a year. So, i am planning to have another gathering for you guys. We also took some pictures, once i get it from Woem Jiann, i definitely will post it out.

By the way, i put another 2kg in this event. I am now 60kg.

Computer virus VS Computer is virus!!

2007-02-06T19:11:00.000-08:00

Recently, i have a lot of assignments due. I spend hours in front of my computer, looking for the informations/ articles that i need. Just like this Wednesday(7-2-2007), i have 1 assignment due- report of the testing that i had done on Monday(5-2-2007), and 2 assignments due in the coming week- 3000 words term paper on bullying and a research report on dental anxiety. I still update my post quite frequently recently.

There is an explanation for it. I can not pay full attention on my assignments in front of the computer. The moment i switch on the computer, the moment i open the file that i need, i will be opening up the online game as well as the Internet explorer and start reading the posts on the blogs that are in my list. My working speed is so slow that in 1 hour i can only write about 200 words in the assigment. My girl friend always wondering why am i take such long time to finish an assigment. I was silent as there is an answer that i can not tell her.

I was so used to playing game using the computer. My mind only conditions computer with playing game not with working. I still remember the first semester, i was required to do a presentation on something in the Communication Skill Class. I chose the thing that i was most familiar with- computer. I was using the title "computer viruses VS computer is virus". The presentation i emphasis on the human dependant of the computer, how human life being affected by the "computer virus", how human can not live without the computers. However i leaved something that is important- computer can be condition with games!!!! The example was me, spend 12 hours in front of the computer and using 8 hours on game and 3 hours on read post. The only hour that leave for assigment will definitely not enough.

So the next time when you notice i update my blog frequently, please dun disturb me.....

I was in a rush of assigments!!!!!!!

Chinese New Year!!

2007-02-04T23:47:00.000-08:00

Another Chinese New Year is just around the corner, i am still wondering what had i achieved so far besides of getting increase of my age. Anyway, i think i may have improve a little bit in my language..... i may have became more mature...... i have started saving as i started getting extra money during end of the months.... most important thing was that i killed the first cockroache last Saturday night by myself.....just kidding.

Lets talk about my wishes for this years. I hope that i can save up the 1st 10k of my own. I wish that my results will get better and better. I hope that i will get my own car. I hope that i will be getting more and more free time. Lastly but not the least, i wish that MDBC's friendship will last forever. I'm so sorry as i can't join you in all the activities.

Happy Chinese New Year for all of my friends and hope that your wishes will be granted in the year 2007.

Vigilance!

2007-02-01T00:35:00.000-08:00

After reading monkey's post, i suddenly recalled the test that i had done. It is a personality test call as the 16 PF. It was a paper pencil test where u have to answer 200++ questions. After that, u will know the 16 common characteristics of yours. Welli score averagely in most of the characteristics except for the vigilance and perfectionism. I scored a very high score in the vigilance factor and very low score in the perfectionism. Scoring high in the vigilance factor inticate that i am very suspicious toward other people that approaching me. I am always thinking that someone approaching me because they have some purposes. While scoring low in the perfectionism inticates that i am not very organize. I will easily get comfortable in any situation.

The test is quite accurate. I am very caution about others. I'm alway have the thinking that someone doing something because they have something they need in their mind. I'm also alway keeping things in my mind, not believing in anyone. I alway think that letting others know who i am will make myself become weak and then being taken advantages by the others. Don't ask me why but i just don't know what happen in my growing process that develop such characteristic in myself. I was so suspicious that i keep this characteristic as a secret. Until now, i believe that no one else know about me, about the thinking that i was having.

Just like monkey, i hate people backstabbing each others. I saw many cases that happen around me, i just kept quiet and keeping things in myself. I keep their names in my mind and i always caution when i was around them, try to avoid any unpleasant thing that may happen. I become more and more quiet as i do not want to have any attention or become the attention spot of the spot lights.I do not want to become one of their victims. However accidents did happen. Not matter how hard u tried to avoid, backstabbing is unavoidable. I was badly hurt.

Friends, simple step to avoid backstabbing, do not let others know about you weaknesses. They never dare to do anything if they know nothing about you.

IQ testing and my language..

2007-01-26T00:22:00.000-08:00

This semester will be a short semester. 6 weeks to complete 2 subjects. All together i have 4 assignment. 2 data collections + report, complete a 3000 words essay, and lastly my IQ testing.
Well, i have not done any of them. How many week i have? May be 2 weeks, may be less than that. I'm not sure.

Nevermind, back to our title, yes, i'm going to say something about tis IQ testing. I was asked to do the test on 2 subjects, one was my coursemate and another on normal subjects. The pervious one i already finished including testing on the subjects, scoring, report writting as well as the presentation of the report. I am facing another problem-- i can't find my normal subject. At first, i try to find see yuan. However his timetable is crush with mine which indicate that he can not come to the college. Then i was thinking of lou mun, but then i realised that he was too far from the Sunway. So i'm still looking for my guiney pig.

Anyway, the IQ test that i will use on the subject is called as WAIS-R. Before studying psychology, i did an IQ testing online. I need to tell you that it is totally different. The WAIS-R is mostly divided into two main part- the verbal subtest and the performance subtest. It was not a paper and pencil test. However i do not like this test because it is using English. As all of you know, my English grammar is quite ok, but my speaking........ Well i can listen, but i do not dare to talk in English even to my coursemate. I can speak when the situation is DANGEROUS! So sometime, i will think that my English speaking will improve much much more if i go to study oversea-- where every sentense i speak have to be in English.

Sad to say, i am facing some troubles in runnning the test. Friends, encourage yourselves to speak more english--it is important.

Decision making!

2007-01-19T22:28:00.000-08:00

Human's life is full of moments that require us to make our choices. Not like animals, our choices affect our lives dramtically as we live longer than the animals. When a lion see a deer, what the lion has to choose is to eat or not to eat.Even the lion regrets later or even for the rest of its life, it will be only 10 years to 20 years. However when a human made a decision and regret afterward, it may haunted him/her for 50 years, 70 years or even more.

As for myself, although i am only 21++ years old, there were a lot of mistakes that i had made, the decisions that i regret of. Sad to say, some of the decisions-mistakes will affect me for the rest of my life. I would do anything to make the situations different again. I would do anything to make sure i would not make another wrong decision again. However, life is not that simple. Once you choose, the consequences will follow you for the rest of your lives not matter what you do to change the situation. There are not such thing that once you lost you can start from the beginning. What you can do is only open another path from the path that you had chosen but the past will still be there no matter how hard you try. Some of the people may say :" Why we have to remember the things that you had done wrongly while you already turn to a new leaf?"

Well, we didn't choose to remember, but the human brain is not like a hard disk. You can delete the info that you do not want in hard disk but the human brain is something that is totally different. The harder you try to forget the harder you remember.

I am nearly graduate(1 years ++), i have to make another decision again. I am still wondering. Should i work first or should i continue my study. If i choose to continue my study, which area should i choose? Educational or Clinical? Would i want to be a educational psychologist or a clicical psychologist? If i choose to be clinical psychologist, there will be another choices that i have to make- whether i become a clinical child psychologist or i only want to see adult patients?
Friends, give me some opinions!!

Believe it or not??

2007-01-13T23:50:00.000-08:00

性別: 男生辰:1985年6月28日 1:10

您是屬於城堡命

◎您是雄偉的城堡，犧牲奉獻，服務人群，付出不求回報。重諾講信，喜歡有仁慈，有魄力的人。外表隨合，內心執著。不隨便表示意見，優點也不輕易顯露。◎根據命理來分析您的個性，潛意識，以及行為模式，您是屬於「城堡命」，因此您天生具有城堡的特質，願意犧牲自己，保護別人，個性隨遇而安，能接納別人，屬於有智慧，但不是小聰明的類型。城堡像大地一樣，默默承受一切，因此您個性比較隨和，但有點木訥，雖然有許多寶貴的看法，卻不隨便表示意見。城堡雖然雄偉，卻常常被忽略，許多人享受城堡提供的一切，卻習以為常，很少人會感謝城堡的付出，您也不喜歡邀功，所以一般人容易忽略您的貢獻，一旦您離開了原先的崗位，人們才會發覺您的重要性。城堡的防禦性很強，因此您的心防也很強，一般人不容易進入您的內心世界。城堡雖然堅固，卻很包容，因此只要有優秀的人才，您願意把舞台、機會讓給別人，但您的內心卻很執著，對於堅持到底的事情不輕易放棄，有點擇善固執。此外，您喜歡有魄力與義氣的人，不喜歡長袖善舞，耍小聰明的人，而能讓您佩服的人，多半是能犧牲奉獻，平等待人的人。您的一生，像城堡一樣，是眾人的支柱。您的付出，在當時不一定立刻會有回報，但是在未來一定會有被回饋的一天。城堡屹立不搖，但是不喜歡環境變動，一旦有一天您的生活產生變化，這時就是您的磨練，只要您經得起外在的考驗，不怨天尤人，進而學習成長，一旦通過考驗，您的生活會更上一層樓，富貴綿長。

◎您本命五行土太旺，胃腸機能比較弱，容易有腹脹，腹痛，腹瀉，消化吸收的問題。

◎根據命理分析，您天生胃腸功能比較弱，在年輕的時候不會有太大的問題，等多是腸胃不適、胃酸過多、脹氣、腹瀉、腹痛等問題，但是如果您現在不照顧消化系統，隨著年紀越來越大就很容易導致消化系統病變，例如食道炎，胃炎、胃潰瘍、腸炎、大腸息肉、痔瘡、糖尿病等問題。因此您不能過度勞累，要調適壓力，維持正常作息，早睡早起，三餐要定時定量，不能喝酒，少吃刺激性飲食，才可以保護先天比較弱的胃腸功能。此外，所謂「病從口入」，人類大部分的疾病來源都跟飲食有關，根據中醫理論，食物可以分成金、木、水、火、土等五種五行。您可能偏好吃各種甜食或甜點，因此，您的細胞中，充滿太多「土」的五行，會導致健康，財運與事業的不圓滿，建議您平時最好能飲食均衡，菜色均衡，則陰陽五行調和，生活美滿幸福。◎但是您八字缺金，呼吸系統機能也比較弱，容易呼吸不順，感冒咳嗽，或有氣喘等症狀。

◎根據命理分析，您天生呼吸系統功能比較差，在年輕的時候不會有太大的問題，頂多是容易鼻子過敏、流鼻水、咳嗽、感冒、胸悶、腹瀉或便秘，但隨著年紀越來越大，呼吸系統需要更多的照顧，不然很容易導致鼻竇炎、氣喘、肺炎、支氣管炎、大腸息肉、直腸炎等問題。因此您不能過度勞累，而且千萬不能抽菸，要維持正常作息，早睡早起，才可以保護先天比較弱的呼吸系統。此外，您是屬於比較隨性的類型，凡事方便就好，因此不會很注重居住空間以及工作環境的品質。您做事情也比較心急，缺乏耐心，所以您與其他人相處的關係並不是那麼的融洽，也缺少貴人的提攜。如果您想改變這種現象，要開始練習腹式呼吸，此外，要保持週邊環境的空氣新鮮，通風順暢，尤其晚上睡覺的時候，臥房千萬不可緊閉門窗。只要您體內的氧氣充足，那您的命運將會有很大的改變，身體健康，財運順利，事業圓滿，家庭幸福。

◎簡易愛情分析，您是屬於雙方平等，保持距離的愛情。您的愛情不是屬於濃情密意的那一型，反而有一點像朋友，雙方地位比較平等，相互間追求一種平衡。您不太容易找到那種小鳥依人、百依百順的對象。◎您愛情的模式，根據命理分析，您對於心儀的異性，很容易心動，但不容易成功，常常無疾而終，因為要兩個人都一見鍾情確實有點難。一般來說，異性對您的第一印象都不會太深，您是需要經過交往的階段，異性才會發現您的優點與內在美。換句話說，您很容易第一眼就喜歡上一個人，卻不容易經過長時間相處而喜歡上一個人。相反地，您的戀愛對象不容易第一眼就喜歡上您，卻很可能經過長時間相處而喜歡上您。因此，如果您在等待美好的愛情，您可以試著把自己的內在美透過各種方式表現出來，多參加各種活動，多培養各種興趣，多接觸不同人群，如此您會在不知不覺中，讓您的內在美隨時展現，愛情才會更順利。在人生的旅程中，您的戀愛或結婚對象很有可能是先經由親友介紹或相親而認識，因為您對於愛情比較不太有經驗，也不善於包裝自己、行銷自己，有時更怯於表達自己的感情，碰到喜歡的人也多半停留在欣賞的階段，不容易積極主動的展開追求，更不會死纏爛打，因此不僅錯失許多機會，更在心中產生既期待又怕受傷害的感覺，反而更不容易擦出愛的火花。您若是對象還沒有出現，不要心急，在您身邊確定有人正喜歡著您，只要真心誠意去追求，幸福就在您身邊。

◎簡易財運事業分析，您不容易守財，也不容易儲蓄，每次累積到一定的財富就會發生一些事情讓您花錢。

◎根據命理分析，您不容易守財，也不容易儲蓄，每次累積到一定的財富就會發生一些事情讓您花錢。您對於生命比較達觀，因此不會對自己，也不會對家人或朋友太小氣。在您手頭比較緊的時候，該花的錢您還是會花，不會一毛不拔；在您手頭比較寬裕的時候，您花錢會很大方，不會對自己、家人或朋友小氣，正因為如此，您當然不容易存錢。此外，您很容易因為朋友的介紹而做了某些投資，而且常常虧本。這是因為您的個性交遊廣闊，也認識很多人，所以當朋友來找您投資時，您不容易分辨風險，也不容易拒絕，所以當然很容易虧本。如果以一生的時間來衡量，您今生大部份的財富會被您拿來做自己想做的事情，您會認為您使用過的金錢才是您真正擁有的財富。之後，您不會遺留太多的財富給後代子孫。

Stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-01-07T22:15:00.000-08:00

New semester arrive, my timetable packs like hell. First day in college and i already feel like falling sick. But i have not time for sick! Despite i feel that my whole body is burning, i have to rush to my tuition classes later right after my lessons.Is this stress cause i already feel like crying. I am moving at the speed that i was not expected. I'm still wondering.. wondering that i am moving too fast or too slow. I feel very stressful when i see someone at my age already having a car and i feel even stressful when i knew one of my friends is buying a house. Thanks wai choon for saying something like i am independent but i'm not sure i'm the one that you should admire. I admit that my situation may look stable but i'm someone that is alone in this city, struggling for my dreams, alway comparing to someone that i should not compare. I am just another pathetic person that wondering in this city

My old friends

2006-11-29T23:43:00.000-08:00

I started missing my old friends that day. I was on due date for an assignment. In fact, it was overly due. The assignment was about a testing. We are required to find two people for our subjects. That's where i met my problems. The testing is not cheap if you want to find some psychologists to do the testings, therefore i did not want to just find anyone that i found at the canteen to do the testing. I wanted my old friends to have the chances. I called them one by one. Neither of them are free for the testing. I gave up, i asked my coursemate to find her friend for me. I sudmit my assignment the next day.

Oh, old friends, i still have some testing to do the semester coming, please make sure you have the time.

Exam? Exam coming nect week? Exam coming next week!!!!!

2006-11-29T23:26:00.000-08:00

Well, time pass like hell. It is another end of the semester again. It also means that exam is right the corner. Damn it, next wednesday will be my Brain and behaviour paper and i have just read 1 chapter only, while the other subjects, "proudly" to say that i haven't touch them with any part of my body. How will my result looks like, i cant imagine i fail another subject again. Oh god, plz give me 48 hours a day. Then i can sleep 12 for hours and study for 36 hours.

What is my plan now? I will burn midnight oil tonight. May be i can finish half of my personality and 4 chapters of my brain behavior. Friday the whole i have my tuition classes, so i will rest the whole Friday night, Saturday morning tuition classes again, but i can study the whole afternoon as well as the whole night. Then i can do so revison of personality on Sunday as the Monday will be the day for personality. After Monday exam, i can put all my attention on the Brain and behavior again as Wednesday will be the big day for Brain and behavior. Only after the brain and behavior, then i will start reading my educational and learning psychology.

Wow, can this works?? it definitely will work if accidents or surprises will not occur. Oh man, why my uni life so pack.

A dog at my house..

2006-11-29T23:19:00.000-08:00

Last week, i adopted a dog a t KL, thinking of keeping my gf's dog company, however my gf's dog fights with the dog that i have adopted, therefore i have not other option but to bring him to my house right away. He is not from pure blood line, but he is cute.

Test how well you know about me

2006-10-30T01:06:00.000-08:00

Take This Quiz - http://www.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=061030041710-621606

His marks is lower than mine!!!

2006-10-29T03:18:00.000-08:00

After the Hari Raya breaks, Boyboy A and girlgirl B get their examination result.
GirlgirlA: What yours result, BoyboyA?
BoyboyA: Nah, you can see it yourselves.
GirlgirlA: Oh my god! You only get 39!
BoyboyA: It is Ok lah.
GirlgirlA: Wha do you mean OK, you fail in your examination.
BoyboyA: Nevermind, Boyboy B only got 36, i'm ok compare to him.(Girlgirl A fainted in the spot.)

I think most of the people are having this kind of thought(Nevermind, somebody is worse than me). For certain incident, this kind of words can actually make us feel better. And human tend to stay in some place where they can feel better.

However as a leaders, we should alway think the other ways around. They should alway think like; Oh, someone is better than me, i should do better than that particular person. How would the people of the country think when their leader say: Yes i'm bad, but A is worse than me.

Super M VS Bat Lah

2006-10-16T02:33:00.000-07:00

Super M: How is your fasting?
Bat Lah : Quite ok, thanks for letting me go during this period.
Super M: You are welcome; actually I’m already old. I also need to concentrate during my fasting period.
Bat Lah : Fasting do make old man like us not energetic. But I don’t think young man would feel that too.
Super M: Yup, I always wish I will become young again.
Bat Lah : Will you fight with me again after fasting?
Super M: Of course, I will voice out my dissatisfaction.
Bat Lah : But you already lost in the voting?
Super M: No matter I win or I lost, I still the ex-leader. I still have the right to voice out my opinion.
Bat Lah : You know I would not giving you the chance to come back, right? You should know it is already my time for the countries since you lost.
Super M: Don’t you forget, my son won in the voting too. Although the people were falling into your trap, I still have my chance. They think that once I won the voting, my title of ex-leader will disappear. That’s why they don’t vote for me.
Bat Lah : You never give up don’t you?
Super M: Certainly, I will be coming back.
Bat Lah : Ya right, I will be waiting for you.

This conversation is not a real incidents. Just for fun reading, please do not think that it is some kind of offence. Thank you.

Satisfaction & dissatisfacton??

2006-10-16T02:24:00.001-07:00

Why am I always voice out my dissatisfactions but never voice out my satisfaction??
Well, I think it is because my might be the selfish type? I want to share my dissatisfactions because sometime they seem to drive me crazy.
Lets describe what are dissatisfactions. I think that they are things or incidents that make us unhappy. While in the meantime, in psychology we describe the stressors as something that are unpleasant.

Dissatisfactions = unhappy
Unhappy= unpleasant
Stressors= unpleasant
Dissatisfactions = Stressors

So brothers and sisters, voice out the dissatisfactions!!

Boring??

2006-10-02T01:37:00.000-07:00

While everyone of my friends say that University's life are boring, i wonders why i never feel so. Somewhere here is not right, i think.
When i was in primary school,my mother used to tell me, "Boy, be hardworking now, you will be relax when you are in secondary.". I believed her.
When i was in lower secondary school, my mother told me,"Boy, be hardworking now, you will be more relax when you are in Form 4 and 5." I believed her.
When i was in Form 4 and 5, my mother also told me," Boy, be hardworking, you will be more relax after this." I started to think she is lying. I was in 50 50.
When i was in STPM, my mother told me again," Boy, be hardworking, you will be more relax in University." I was 100% sure she was lying.
Now i know the truth my mother was lying during i was primary and secondary school, study will never be easy. However, i never know if my mother was lying during STPM because i was never hardworking, therefore i would never know how a loyal university life will be.

Am i lucky?

2006-09-27T14:29:00.000-07:00

Am i lucky? I always ask myself this question. My friends told me that i'm very lucky because of this and that. However i am still wondering is that true?

Last years or may be the year before, i just finished my STPM. I was actually not satisfy with the result. I planned to resit for the exam which i didn't. I paid for the exam and took my time to do the revision when suddenly something happen and i cancelled my plan. I remember that was aridi end of August when nearly all the courses closed their application. i rushed to Sunway University College(that time i did not know what the differences between collge and university) because it is nearest from my place(i thought). Well, you know what happen, the psychology course aridi started two weeks and was the only course that still accepting students for that weeks. So i'm in. Yup, i'm sure u will say ohmygod!! but that the reason i'm in psychology now.

Am i crazy?? Is that the question u ask?? i dun noe. A year after i'm in the course and started to know the differences between college and university, i then found out that Sunway was a college several years ago and newly change into university college. Then a couples months after that, i know there are cert that being accepted by other countries and the one that accepted by Malaysia only, then Lancaster University come in....

So Am i Lucky????

Assignment!! Assignment and Assignment!!!!

2006-09-27T14:18:00.000-07:00

Well, long time since my last posting. Like all other university, my course also got a lot of assignment. Some are they are repeated. Some are they are rubbish. While the assignment below is repeated and rubbish. We actually studied about writting our research paper at the very 1st sem of the course. However, this addition subject pop-up from nowhere-English for psychology. I have the feeling like getting back to Form 6. I actually have to study about grammer and writting essay. I even do not know what out exam will look like. The truth is- my universty life is suck.

“Mummy, I don’t want to go to the piano class anymore.” say a little girl. Her mother initially look shock, but she then say, “But honey, you are the one that tells mummy that you love piano at the very first place.” The little girl just shakes her small little head and tells her mother that she is not motivated to go to the class. The mother look surprised. She thought that the girls should be very motivated because she always promises to reward her daughter an ice-cream for finishing the piano class and she did.

It is true that when sometimes children feel not motivated, we try to motivate that by rewarding the things they want such as toys, ice-cream and so on. It is the easiest way to make the children keeping up their handworks. Rewards not only used on the children, but even at work place, employers tend to motivated the workers to perform better by giving them bonuses, and all kind of allowance. A worker will also tend to find a company where he can get extra bonuses during the end of the year. Some say that there is not better to motivate workers than with money. As in the world we are living it is foolish to say we can live without money or other words it is foolish to say we can live without sweets or ice-cream in a children world.

According to Deci & Ryan, motivation is divided into intrinsic motivation and extrinsic motivation. Intrinsic motivation such as interest is the innate propensity to engage one’s interests and to exercise one’s capacities and in doings so, to seek out and master optimal challenges while the extrinsic motivation such as money and food arises from the environmental incentives and consequences. For instance, people who learn out of intrinsic motivation (interest) show more positive emotion than those who are learn out of extrinsic motivation (money). For example, a worker that is interested in his works will be more satisfy with his works and performs better in his works compare to those who are motivated by the money. Extrinsic motivation does help to motivate the people to work harder to perform better. However these do not explain why the girl is no longer motivated to practice piano. She supposes to be more motivated because she involved in something she is interested in and receiving an extrinsic reward from her mother. What happen to the people who are intrinsically motivated being rewarded by the extrinsic reward? Will they become more and more motivated? Will they become more and more motivated or the other way round?

The scientists found surprising results. Increased motivation generally does not occur during the research. Rather, the imposition of extrinsic reward actually undermined the intrinsic reward. In other words, giving extrinsic reward to someone that learns out of intrinsic motivation will only reduce his/her intrinsic motivation. Leeper & Greene named this adverse effect of extrinsic reward on intrinsic motivation as ‘the hidden cost of reward’. This finding actually shocks the whole world. Everyone does not expect a hidden effect of the extrinsic rewards. Who else has expected that the way they tried to motivate the children by promise to give them rewards will actually reduce their interests to ward that particular subject. The mother’s action of rewarding her daughter an ice-cream after every class, expecting to increase her daughter’s motivation, actually incur the hidden cost of undermining her daughter’s intrinsic motivation toward piano. The scientists later also found that there are actually two factors that explain which types of rewards that decrease intrinsic motivation.

The two rewards that undermine the intrinsic motivation are expectancy and tangibility. People tend to engage in activity to receive rewards such as we tend to working harder because we expect to get promoted. However studies show that finishing a task with the expectation of getting reward will actually decrease one intrinsic motivation while unexpected reward will not. The second factor that undermines the intrinsic motivation is tangible reward. Tangible reward such as money, food, and award will actually decrease one’s intrinsic motivation, whereas verbal reward such as praise will not. In other words, rewards that are promised, touchable, testable will generally decrease intrinsic motivation. Therefore as a mother, she should not promise the little one what she going to get after finishing the piano classes, but to praise her after she finishes the class or performs well.

Without any doubt, rewards are the important factor toward one’s motivation. Rewards can actually motivate others to perform better. However we have to be careful as under some situations, rewards can actually undermined the child intrinsic motivation to learn. I strongly agree that under some situations, reward can actually caused people to become less motivated. To avoid such incidents from happening, parents should always reward their children by praising them or giving them unexpected reward rather than promise the children to buy something or giving them money.

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References:

Deci, E. L., Ryan, R. M. (1985). Intrinsic motivation and self-determination in human behavior.New York: Plenum.
Reeve, J. (2005). Motivation and Emotion. Hoboken, NJ: John Wiley & Son.

First Failure after 21 years old!

2006-07-22T03:06:00.000-07:00

A lot of us consider ourselves adults after 21 years old, some consider themselves adults when they can take their own responsibility for the desicions they make while i consider myself an adult after 21 years old as i need to responsible every desicions that i make. Like a lot of the ordinary human being, i have plans for my later live. I also prepare myself mentally for anything that may get wrong during my journey such as failures, delay of the plans, surprises and so on.

However i never consider myself will encounter failure right just after 22 days after my 21 years old birthday. I failed in my final exam. What make it worse was i failed 2 subject outs of 5. I nearly break down. Telling you all the truth, i cried for almost an hour. And i think i would continue crying if i had not tuition class later. I felt awkful. I thought i would get a better result that last two semesters because i could answer most of the questions. I never consider failling the exam as one of the surprises in my plans.

What to do? I have to resit that 2 subjects. I have to pay RM800 and the highest grade i can get for than is C . My CGPA surely will drop. Fucking Surprises!!!!!!!!!!!!

3rd Semester Over.....

2006-07-18T00:15:00.000-07:00

Final Exam is about to come to an end, holidays is about to start. I wonder how other feel about holiday, but i feel kind of relieve. I am exhauted. I really need a rest. Since last month of last year, i start my first long term, 3 quater time works( more than part time but less than full time). Although i enjoy teaching, but it is very tiring when i have to worry about my school works as well as my students' results. Pressure, the only thing i feel. Worrying that my students may leave the center because of me. Every time a student leaved, i would ask myself the question,'Is it my fault?' So far, my respond is 'No, they leaved because they wanted to leave.' However, you never know when my confidence break down and blaming myself for everything that has gone wrong.

Once Rubbish, Alway Rubbish!!!

2006-07-12T23:38:00.000-07:00

In order to become gentlemen, we study the ways a gentleman behave, the ways he talks, and so on. However, what is the definition of a gentleman?? Then we start to imagine a man that always smile, a man that opens doors for lady, a man that talk politely... all of these is what we can see form the outside. But what if the man that smile is actually thinking :" haha, some1 is getting into my trap!". What if the man that open the doors is actually thinking :" Welcome to the hell!" and the man talk politely is only want to have sex. Then you will say how rude.. Now here is the real case.. students passed up their moral study assignment( For all of you that do not know, It is 1 of the LAN subjects for private University, every student have to pass the 3 LAN subject in order to get the certificate. In the Moral Study, students have to visit to home and passed the report)... Below is one of the students' personal feeling..

Hugging, something which that is nothing extraordinary to us. We hug when we meet an old friend. We hug when we say good bye to other. We also hug when meeting new friends in certain culture. Due to the reason we can get hugging whenever we want since we were small, hugging has became something like ‘Hello’ and ‘Good bye’ in our lives. Therefore we never expect hugging as a need in our lives after we grow up. However, to them, hugging are something they need and something that are lack in their lives. They thirst for hug. They cried for hug from their parents when they were babies. They shouted for hug when they saw parents hugging their children. Even when they grow up, deep inside their heart, their hunger toward hugging never stop. That is what I feel after the visit to the home. They may not have the money to buy beautiful clothes but they do not need to worry about clothes as someone will donate to them. They may not have the money to buy food but they have their three meals a day. However hugging is something that they thirst for. That is what I felt during my visit. During my visit, one of the boys asked me for hugging. I felt like nothing as we used to hug our friends. However the moment I hug him, two other boy came over and asking me for the same thing, before I answered them, they already took their action- pushing each other in order to be hug. The incidents happened until the moment we leaved. In my heart, I knew they were not mischievous, they only want to have our attention, and they want to be loved just like all of us.

Nice isn't it...however here is the real personal thinking....
Walau, the situation here is not as bad as you all think leh. They eat 3 meal per day without worrying leh. They even have free tuition classes. But some of the kids, i really felt like holding an AK-47 and shotting them to death. I thought they only wanted a hug, but 3 of them climbing all around, making me having difficulty in breathing. Biadah!!!!!!!!!!!!

So do the Moral study or the Moral values work out???Once Rubbish, Always Rubbish!!

Child or No Child??

2006-07-07T20:11:00.000-07:00

This semester, i study developmental psychology, it is mainly talking about everything before the child born till the moment he die. One day during the lecture, our lecturer ask among us who want to have child later in our life. Among 13 of us, 4 said they never want a child, and their reasons are child are troublesome, children that behave like a monkey will kill them, and lastly the moment the child grow into adolescence is the fear factor. One of them even said her mother told her not to have child if she want to be free..

WTF!!!

What had the generation gone wrong???? A child now become a burden??? How could they be so selfish?? I mean if you have others reason such as you are having illnesses and you don't want a child because you afraid he will become like you...i can accept this reason but do not want to have children because they are troublesome and you will have no freedom...i will say go to hell.. Compare to the grandmother generations, they are having 8 to 10 kids and they have nothing at all..and now people only having 1 or 2 kids and having all the modern things around you.. who is more suffer!!!!and for the reason afraid they will become samseng.... Eat up your own shit!!!! If your children become samseng, it's your fault!!! If you are having this concern, may be you should look into the mirror and you will see a huge shit in it...

New Dream(1)...

2006-05-23T19:16:00.000-07:00

Everyone will have a dream. Most of the dreams would be i want to be a rich man. I sure most of you will be agree with me. I mean who has never dreamed about driving a dream car and shown up in front of the house of your dream gal?

I am no different from you. Since i was young, i alway dream about the day when i become rich. I was thinking that when i become rich, i can retire earlier, having a farm, sleeping on the field, and so on. Although i was dying to be rich, i had no idea what can i do to be rich. I had dream but i didn't have my target- way to acheive my dream..

I am about 21 years old now, my dream- still want to be rich, still want to retire earlier, still want to have a farm, still want to sleep on the field. Nothing change except i have my target now. As you know i still an student that desperately thrirst for my Honour Degree, in this society, degree is as same important to the driving license. You can nowhere wihtout them.
Besides studying, my plan of getting rich also started. I'm now also work in a tuition center. My employer did ask me to be one of the partners, however i do not know how true can it be. But i try to hang on it, i still need experiences abd reputations to open my own center.

Wei Kheong as tutor? While you all start to imagine how would be it look like, i would also tell you how surprise i am when i found out i somehow love teaching. I love to interact with my students. Now back to the part of my boss. What i like to tell you that my boss is somehow i would like to say he's smart. He leaves his center to 2 guys to take care of while himself get another job. While the 2 guys, me and the other 1, have to work hard to teach, to get students, to perpare our note for the center and all other works. Well, for all our hardwork, of course we get our payment and his invitation to be partners. But somehow, i don't feel secure, the way he speaks to us, seem like we are just employees. However. i tell my self to give him another year time.

What is the meaning of life?

2006-04-26T21:02:00.000-07:00

Recently i was so busy with all the homeworks, tuition works, and so on. So busy that i didn't even have time to rest. Last night my boss asked me to become one of the partners of the tuition center. Of course i was happy because i will get extra payment next month. I suddenly felt that all my hard works did pay. Although i need to teach extra classes in the coming months, but i still felt worthy.

And then this morning, i received a call from my mother, she told that my grandmother just pass away. Mood dropping low certainly. I suddenly wonder what is the purpose we alive??
To make ownself busy?? To get promoted?? To extra payment?? To be happy?? To gain more knowledge??? What's actually motivate us to continue our lives??

Astrological Sign!!

2006-04-19T19:30:00.000-07:00

A.Aquarius
B.Virgo
C.Pisces
D.Cancer
E.Libra
F.Leo
G.Capricorn
H.Taurus
I.Sagittarius
J.Aries
K.Scorpio
L.Gemini

Are your answer suit your astrological sign?

Is it accurate?
Well when we believe in it or you alway read about it, our behavior will slowly being shaped toward the quality that the Astrological sign tell us. So this is how advertisement works, when we explose to the advertisement, we will slowly be influence.

Which 1 best describes you??

2006-04-19T19:23:00.000-07:00

A. vesatile-idealistic-unconventional-sincere
B. Practical- thorough-discontented-inductrious
C. emotional-compassionate-easygoing-adaptable
D.tactful-secretive-imaginative-shy
E.intellectual-tactful-self-indulgent-sensitive
F.extravagant-warmhearted-impulsive-optimistic
G.calm-aloof-possessive-tenacious
H.stable-truthful-self-indulgent-possessive
I.outspoken-playful-restless-direct
J.daring-impatient-witty-quick-tempered
K.tactless-intense-insightful-loyal
L.irritable-talkative-adventurous-changeable

Choose which of type are you??

Payment System of Government

2006-04-19T18:35:00.000-07:00

The Government payment is mostly divided into 4 class:

S class (degree level)
U class (medical doctor)
Z class (army)
V class (low educational level)

The first year payment(not include allowances) for each class :
S class(RM 1200 ...increase RM80-100 every year)
U class(RM 1450....increase Rm80-100 every year)
Z class(RM 450...increase RM30 every year)
V class(RM 800... increase RM30 every year)

How do government increase the payment?

For example:

If you were just gratuated with not achievement and experience, then you will be hired with the S1T1 salary which will be the lowest in S class. If you have not achievement or perform adequately then your salary will increase to S1T2 level. Same thing happen every year until you reach the level of S1T7 and that the highest salary you can get.
If you were just gratuated with not achievement but with some experience, then you may be hired with the S2T1 salary which will be a bit higher than S1T2. And you will be following the chart and increase your salary every year until you reach S2T7.

However if your report of the year state that you are well- perform in your works, your salary may increase form S1T1 to S2T1 or S1T3. And after you reach your highest stage(T7 stage) and you are performing well ,your position may reach a higher level which is call as the JUSA.

JUSA A(Prime Minister)
JUSA B
JUSA C
JUSA D
JUSA E( A principle highest level)
JUSA F

How to reward correctly??

2006-04-13T19:35:00.000-07:00

Two factors that will undermine intrinsic motivation:

Expexted reward(if i read book, then i can watch TV)
Tangible reward(money,food and so on)

In future, how do we reward our kids or workers??
We still can reward them in the same ways with some additional rewards:

Use more unexpected rewards(give surprise to your kids or workers, reward them not only when you promise to but sometimis also reward them without they aware of)
Use verbal rewards( praise them in appropriate way, for exampe say something like"well done, i'm feeling happy with your works" instead of " well done, you should be alway behave like this"

Hiden cost of reward!!

2006-04-13T19:23:00.000-07:00

Reward does sometime increase one's behavior.However there is something everyone should aware of: Reward may undermine the intrinsic motivation.

First of all, what is intrinsic motivation and extrinsic motivation?
Intrinsic motivation is you are being motivate to do something within yourselves, for example you read books because reading is your interest.
Extrinsic motivation is you are being motivated because of extenal factor, for example you read text books because your mother promise to buy your something afterward.

For example a girl who like to play piano join a music class, her mother then reward her by giving her money each time she finish the class. By the time goes by the girl may lost her interest toward piano.

Now after studying psychology. i finally find the reason why i lost interest toward studying cause my mother rewards me a lot. HAha....

Reward and punishment!

2006-04-12T20:15:00.000-07:00

In psychology,just like the fobia, reward dan punishment is another kind of learning too. However it is called as operant conditioning which refer to the process a person learns to behave to produce attractive consequences.

There are two things we will talk about in this conditioning :
Reinforement and Punishment.
Reinforcement is something you do to increase the intensity of behavior.
Punishment is something you do to decrease the intensity of behavior.

The question is why do my child or employee do not motivate by the reward i give??
It may be caused by the several reason:

The reward's quality
The immediacy(reward being given immedialy or after a periond)
The reward's fit (the reward fit the work that had been done?)
The recipient's need (that person need that reward?)
Reward intensity(Reward being given everytime or just sometime)
The value of the reward(that person may not think that is a reward)

What next?>>Rewards VS punishment!

2006-04-12T20:11:00.000-07:00

We all will be parents someday. So before you becoming one, learn something we all knew-rewards and puishment! Not only can you used this way on your child, you can also use it on your employees, who'll u will become one soon.

Cure for fobia??

2006-04-12T19:56:00.000-07:00

Of course fobia can be cure. Still using me as an example. First divide the cockroaches into levels ( horror level)

Flying cockroaches
Dead cockroaches
photo of cockroaches
picture of cockroaches
Cartoon character of cockroaches

and so on. My level of horror will be at 2nd level. How do i know? I try all of them and i still can accept a dead cockroaches at my bed. What i mean is i would not scream as long as you do not tell me to remove it from my bed. So the thing you have to do is slowly approach the body and get used of it. Only you are not longer feeling fear of the body or may be you already brave enough to remove it, you can get to the next level--approach the flying cockroaches.

So by this ways you will can slowly get rid of your fobia. Have i try it before?

The answer will be NO! I already told you i am damn hell afraid of cockroaches and before i can get myself a dead cockroaches, i will be already scare to dead. Besides, i would not be so free to get myself a dead cockroaches

Fobia!!!

2006-04-06T20:50:00.000-07:00

For those who are fear of something, your situatioans can be explain by the classical conditionaning. It actually is one type of the learning process. Allow me to explain in details.Taking me as example, i'm damn fear of cockroaches. However when i recall back to my early years, i had no fear of such creature. therefore cockroaches still were a neutral stimulus (NS)for me which i felt no respond toward them. However like everyone of u i afraid of pain. IN the conditioning pain became the unconditioned stimulus (UCS) and pain os the unconditioned response(UCR). That night when i was sleeping, suddenly something was moving on my neck. To my horror i removed that thing however may be that creature leg scratched my neck. Ouch...what the hell was that...i switched on the light and i saw a cockroach in my hand....before i knew what to do, the smell of the creature wake me up...next respond...you all know what happen. I already completed the conditioning...
Till now i am still damn hell scare of that creature with that horrible smell...

Coming Next: FOBIA!!

2006-04-05T20:21:00.000-07:00

Are you afraid of height? Or you afraid of snakes? Or you do not even dare to look onto the picture of a snake? How can this happen? Can it be cure?

First Semester

2006-04-05T19:50:00.000-07:00

There are 5 subjects in the 1st semester:Introduction to psychology, Research method, Pet Behavior study, Communication skill and statistic. In intro to psy we study briefly about all the chapters that we will cover in the coming semesters, and research method, we study about how to carry out a study and how we write our article or report. We also study about pet in pet behavior. Why do we study about pet? In psychology, we use pet to study about children behavior. Some of the psychologist even use pet to communicate with children who abused by parents or caregiver. Most of the victims no longer trust or talk to adults however they are more willing to talk with animals. The most boring part wil be the communication skill and statistic. So i wouldn't talk about them.

i'll be a scientis??

2006-04-04T22:57:00.000-07:00

Sincerely, after joinning the course then i found out that psychology is one type of sciences.We learn about how to carry out a study or a research. Heehee, did i tell anyone else that i want to be a scientist when i was at the primary level. Look like my dream will come true. I just need to complete three years of my degree and two years of master, then i can call myself a psychologist. However a psychologist is not a doctor, you all would not get any medicine from me. What do i mean that psychologists can't call as doctor while they can treat patients. Waitlah. will tell you more later

My lecturers

2006-04-04T22:40:00.000-07:00

First day in the college, i was introduced to my three lecturers. Two of them are clinical psychologists and the other one is a developmental psychologist. All of them are very experienced. They used to treat a lot of patients mainly children. Why we had so few lecturers if you want to ask. It is because this was the first year to have psychology course in the college. Hehe, it means that i will so only a few seniors and lot of juniors.

How i enroll into psychology course?

2006-04-04T22:32:00.000-07:00

All happen in a sudden, i was planning to retake my STPM. Something happened and i changed my mind. However i was already late compare to the others. It was already end of August and all the course enrollment already over. However i didn't want to waste a year of waiting. Therefore i went to a college for more information. To my surprise the psychology course accept my application. Out of choice i enroll in the course.

What psychology to me before joinning the course?

2006-04-04T20:13:00.000-07:00

Before joinning the psychology course, i thought that psychologist is the one like in the movie, he or she always asks his or her patients to lay down and tell their problems. Although i think that it will be fun to earn money this way, i never thought of joinning in a spychology course before.